wat i want???i jus wan to hav a happy dinner today at esplanade...a sweet msg from u...and take neoprint together with u...but...why everything turn out to be like tis???wat happen??i dunno...feel like killing myself...but i scare of pain...wat i actually wan???actually i dun mean wat i say...i think...i jus wan a sweet ans from u...but...u are still the same...and u...or mayb me...or us...let history repeat itself...and...i was very sad...wat am i doing??why u nv stop mi from leaving u??i jus wan u to stop mi from going...but i think...u are jus too tired to hold on to mi...issit tat i'm nothing to u already...i noe u noe wat i wan from u...u are jus too lazy to do it...rite??u can still sleep...even though i suggested it...u can also stop mi from doing so...u noe??or maybe...u dun care le...i wish tat i will die now...and i mean now...i feel like tokin to u now...meeting u out...but...i feel like punching u...i wish tat i could cry in ur arms...i wish u could stop mi from leaving mi...i wish i can have a dinner neoprints wif u...can't u jus take the initiative??even if u are not in the wrong??can u jus ask mi to forgive u??can???i noe u won't noe wat i am wishing now...wat i am saying now...i wish i could die now...so tat i dun need to face tis world...u and all the problems we had...i noe u are tire...i noe u are lazy...but wat abt mi??do u think i feel good???i really hate u...i hate myself...and everything...dunno why u still can sleep at tis time...u really dun care...u dun feel heartache as i am...u dun suffer as i am now...u jus dun...is 'dun leave mi really' tat hard to say??or mayb...u are wishing for tis very long already????