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Hmm, tml, or shall I say later, will be my birthday celebration. I hope everything will be alright, run smoothly and all. The food, please, shall not gone to waste.
Hope today's bad luck redeem for tml's smoothness run.
Oh god, bless for my birthday celebration.
G.O.O.D.L.U.C.K.
HAAAAIYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAA.
Seriously, I don't believe in "is the effort that counts" now. Hmmm, I know I put in a lot of effort in making my 21st bdae a good one. But, what I get out of it actually?
Like, isn't everyone wants to be happy on their birthday, and even, looking forward for it to come or whatsoever. Moreover, I think the birthday celebration chalet surprise that I had previously, from my fellow friends is wayyyyy better than the feeling I have now. At least, I don't have to worry about who all coming, who all not coming, like who I want them to come will not not come, and at least, if they plan, they will know when they will not be free and avoid that. Most importantly, they were all there prepared for my presence. And not I am there expecting all to come. You see, waiting for one main one will be easier and even more happening than waiting and worrying for those who suppose to come. It's super disappointing to see and hear the valid reasons they had. You know, like the reason is super valid till you really have no choice, but to accept, thou you are so unwilling and all, but no choice, you have to be considerate. Arghhhhhh.
I wanna be considerate, I wanna be happy, and I wanna it to be fun. But, is hard. I does not only depend on you. Everybody that are suppose to make it happen are also important. I don't know. I really have the feeling that it will be like the "overlapping bricks", one affect another, and then, ta-daaaa, you will get disappointment.
I seriously hope, everyone I want, and I think is important to be around, for my sake, thou, I know the environment or surrounding may be new; don't know each other. But I really want to be selfish this time, at least this time, for my birthday, can I?
I know, it's hard ah. The affecting factors is really affecting them very much, a lot, plentiful, greatly ..., and I'm just so little as compare to that.
Hope not, but possible ... ?
D.I.S.A.P.P.O.I.N.T.
