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today wake up late...haizz...dunno why i so tired also...hmm...eyes really swollen...lucky not so obvious...i think...tat's wat they say...haizz...today...so damn not used to it...late again when meeting sandy they all...nv receive call frm him (as he will always call when i'm reaching woodlands to ask where am i n will meet together last time de)...whew...nvm...but i keep checkin my phone whether got missed call anot...but nope...so i assume...we are over...but still thinking wat is his 'normal' means...hmm...nvm la...i am the wan who started all tis...idiotic man...
hmm...actually itend to pon today wif char...den we reachin our blk le...den go back out again of school compound...we even use 'scissors' 'paper' 'stone' to decide....and char which represent the 'pon sch' wins the game...therefore...we head towards the traffic lights...but den...while walkin towards it...we still decidin...den...we saw kel...she was goin to be late...so as we...we really funny la...actually won't be late de...decide tis and tat...and so...time flews...haizz...
den go to class...settle down...and started to regret le...today's lesson was so damn difficult man...dotx...really hope tat i was absent...hmm...den our group was lost...dunno wat to do...as usual...i ask him for help...but...he nv reply mi...haizz...den my group members keep askin mi to ask him if he has it anot...den i say i dun wan...but they jus say ask...hmm...they dinno wat happen also...so...nvm...tat time really speechless la...dunno wat to do...feel like crying...feel like going home...but...nv...haizz...den break time...as our group really dunno wat to do...den i call him...hmm...no ans...call again...no ans again...haizz...den nudge him all tat...also nv reply...hmm...den go eat the indian stall...eat rice nugget fishcake n harshbrown...but...got a feelin everything got struck to my braces...den very uneasy...so i decided not to eat rice le...moreover...i eat very slow...haizz...dunno why la...started to hate eating le...haizz...think i call sandy...and ask her to help mi...and also call him...but think no ans also...hmm...really quite worried...sad...everything gona change lo...no more him at there for mi lo...haizz...*heartache*
lucky sandy found someone...den we are save...ask sandy some question...den we help here and there...and finally came up with the solution all tat la...haizzz...he at first told mi...'normal' and tis gives mi some hope...more hope coming up when he sms mi and say tat 'he jus wake up'...tat's explain y tis whole morning lidat...so i was quite happi for the rest of my day...
den reach home late...cos got the SAS welcome tea...den reach home le...pm him all tat...but...no reply again...something was not rite...i thought to myself...hmm...try to nudge him...pm him...wait awhile...den decide to call him...but...he hang up my call...i was like goin to reach heaven already...but drop back down to the earth...wat happen again...everything is so not normal...haiz...dunno...really dunno...i thought to myself...i can nv rely on him anymore...anymore...*heartache*
suddenly...a beam of light shine thru...he reply my pm...say he went out wif frens...quite upset la...nv tell mi all tat...den i ask him...wat are we now??wat he mean by normal??hmm...he said...let's be fren...and i was like...drowning in the open sea...mayb even down to hell now...feel like crying...really...tried very hard to control...cos my father was there...haizz...wanna cry also can't...everything jus went not so smoothly today...shuld be really rough...haizz...dunno la...why lidat...haizz...it is bcos someone idiotic...stupid foolish dirty asshole done something yesterday...and lead to tis...but i really tat a msg could mean alot...dotx...still so stubborn...as usual...serve mi rite...i deserve it rite??ya ya...shitty asshole...!!
