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Thursday, July 26, 2007

9:45 PM

Something really weird about me. When I am like doing stuff, I would think of what I want to blog about and all. But now, even with much thinking earlier on, my fingers just couldn't start typing. It may due to my bad memory; and the bad timing when the ideas flow.

Okay, first thing first, I am really growing, sad to say its not vertically but horizontally. My stomach is really protruding, and my double chin can be seen easily. =( so sad ah. I think is because of my digestive system not working properly. ARGH~ haiya, I only get to noticed this on sunday, when I wore my vest to town. However, this doesn't stop me on eating that day.

All thanks to the taka food fest; I get to see lots of varienty of food. Ranging from proper food to tibits, asian to western. Moreover, they have my current craving, the KOREAN FOOD. I went down with my sis and her bf, in which her hp thingy got something wrong. Thus, after the long waiting and queneing; while that time my stomach was empty since I'm awake; my stomach growls. Me can't take it anymore, hence, when we reach the food festive, I just find everything so damn appealing. Wish to buy them all, but no money. =(

We bought jap biscuit, gogo's sausages, korean rice cake =), two pack of sushi, sesame flavoured muah chi, large orange julias. These are all that I could remember. hehe. And by the time I finish everything, I really fully bloated. I know its quite unheathly, but i jus could resist myself from all these nice food. *shy* And after all this, my vest really like exploding sia. I think will get fat in no time. I can imagine, all the fats are forming. =(

Oh ya, I also bought a suspender and a red little miss shirt. =) I bought the little miss greedy, which the picture really depicts my mood that day, greedy. After all these food and shopping, I can really really pronounce bankrupt. But I still thinking of saving up money to buy the little miss sunshine shirt(been searching for so long) at orchard emerald, which loga said it was cheap. ARGH~ so tempting. But, so sad to be broke, and fat now. haiyaaaaaaaa. =(

I nearly fall into the trap

and could get hurt anytime

*****

I just hate it when you say

"why can't I, but she can"

Went school on monday, got my blood withdrawn. So sad, so painful. All thanks to that "guy nurse". Don't think he know to how take people's blood sample. Loga told me, a good "nurse" would not withdraw till bruises one. SAD ah, me got bruises now eh, for days still haven heal. Haiya. Bad luck eh, pay for it, and cause pain and bruises for myself. Smart me smart. Actually, I was so damn afraid initially, as I saw this girl cried(even with the better nurse). Then when it was my turn, I really feel like running away. However I still dragged my feet to the station. Haiya, it was really painful, but I managed to complete it with the help of my classmate, george. THANKS!! =D

I still remembered this day is the most pathethic day in my life, in rp. Oh man!! After the blood test thingy, which cost my 28 bucks, I am really really broke broke broke. Bought noodles for lunch; and I even have to like dig out all the coins I have to buy drink. =( What the hell, what had really happened to me???? ARGH~ And after all these, I left with 50cents to last me for the rest of my day. I still recalled that that was the day that I suggested to go home early after so long. =( sad sad sad. I WANNA FIND JOB!!! MONEY!!! CANT THEY JUST DROP FROM THE SKY?? ahaha. I know its impossible, unrealistic. =(

I know I shouldnt hurt people

as me myself know the pain

*****

I really hope that I could reset my mind

Wednesday went to meet up with secondary school fren, late as always. Don't try to lecture me with this, I know this is a bad habit, and I did try to hurry eh. Haiyaa. The worth of my sorry now is now, dropping, cos i said it too many times. Sorry people, just hope you understand me. Though I said it for umpteen times, and did not say it at times, cos i'm quite ashamed of me using it too many times. =(

Got to know that frens around me have problems. No wonder we can be close fren, cos we have the same fate eh?? ahaha. Well, maybe this is the season for problems, especially for friendship and BGR problems. Hope you guys wont get too afected by it okay?? Just live your life to the fullest, treat it as a lesson learnt, or to pay to see the true colours of somebody eh. =) I think, we can be selfish for the moment, as its human nature. So you can ignored that coloured person for now. ahaha. Just see the side that you wanted to see?? Hmm, or join me on my laughing therapy. I think it really works ah. If you believe that it will, it really would. =) (Only can apply for internal factors only.)

Went to have a English oral "revision". It was weird and awkward at first, as I have to read out the passage. And the ~~weird examiner~~mentor have to listen to every word i said. So paiseh ah. Haiya. I am quite sad about my pronounciation, and speaking English. Do you know how it feel like when somebody actually laugh at your English. And I really felt inferior at times; tongue-tied, cannot pronounce properly. I think my tougue got problem ah. ahaha. Hmm, but i really feel quite disappoint in myself at times, when I, myself can actually hear my own broke English speaking. =( Anyway, my ~~weird examiner~~mentor had gave me confident, says that I have potential in passing; asked me to read the passage slowly, and be careful with the "ed". =)

I hope I could just lock up my heart

till the day that my REAL PRINCE find me.

HOPE I COULD PASS THIS TIME ROUND. =D

I don't want to be sad anymore

May be my ex is really better

At least I know he is faithful

But now...