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To logaRANGINI: ahaha. See this print screen. Me no lying!! is grey in color and ppl's one is green.
12:11 AM
Argh! Subway got promotion till 4th sep. Faster go grab all your free upgrades to mail. Stupid subway people never tell us about this promotion. So all, who have read this mail, just go grab them. Don't let them earn money. Wahaha. So angry!! They never mention a word about this. And when I order my mail, they secretly deduct the money only. What the hell. Still ask my friend whether she want's meal or not. So they can don't give free meals. What the hellll!!!
安靜 An Jing Silence 曲/詞: 周杰倫 Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou
Translation: ava – www.jay-chou.net
只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天 Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
睡著的大提琴 Shui jiao de da ti qin The sleeping cello
安靜的舊舊的 An Jing de jiu jiu de Quiet and so old
我想你已表現的非常明白 Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai I think you've made yourself clear
我懂我也知道 Wo dong wo ye zhi dao I know and I'm sure
你沒有捨不得 Ni mei you she bu de You don't regret
你說你也會難過我不相信 Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin You say you're upset too, that I don't believe
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經 Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin You being with me was in the past
希望他是真的比我還要愛你 Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni I hope he loves you more than I do
我才會逼自己離開 wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai Only then will I bring myself to leave
Chorus
你要我說多難堪 Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan You want me to say it, but it is awkward
我根本不想分開 Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai I don't even want to break up
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過 Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
我沒有這種天份 Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen I don't have the ability
包容你也接受他 bao rong ni ye jie shou ta To accept both you and him
不用擔心的太多 Bu yong dan xin de tai duo Don't worry too much
我會一直好好過 Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo I'll still be fine
你已經遠遠離開 Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai You've already gone far away
我也會慢慢走開 Wo ye hui man man zou kai And I will slowly walk away
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你 Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?
我真的沒有天份 Wo zhen de mei you tian fen I really don't have the ability
安靜的沒這麼快 An jing de mei zhe me kuai Staying silent doesn't come so fast
我會學著放棄你 Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni I will learn to give you up
是因為我太愛你 Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni Because I love you so much
Repeat
I always like this song. This is also the first song I admire from JAY. Also, this is the first song I tried and able to memorise till now. Meaningful eh.
Tuesday went to watch 881 with gina all. The show was fun and touching. I cried. After so long, I actually cried for a movie. Really touching. They working soon. So good. Work equals income. Me, no work, no income, bankrupt soon. Haix.
Wednesday went to watch hairspray. The show was nice, funny. I love the way the actress sing. And the funniest part was their dancing part and all. Went to eat subway before that. Thought the ppl give us more change that we should get. But, now then I realised, they actually having a promotion. Giving free meals for every sandwich you buy. Ahaha. Funny ah. Sorry logaRANGINI, I didn't mean to be so calculative ah. Time was bad for me now. I'm going bankrupt. =(
Going to steamboat later. Have no idea how to get the money. Haix. Time is really bad for me. I never picture myself at this state. You can just laugh your ass off your chair at me now if you want. =(
And yea, mum going overseas with friend again. Haix. She won't be home till monday. Her life is good eh. Time for her to enjoy. =) How I wish I could have a sum of money, and go overseas without telling anyone. Just stay there for months and all. Forget about everything and start afresh there. It could be tough but, just want a change. Ha, dreaming again. Me now even going bankrupt eh, where the hell to get that big sum of money to even buy the air tickets and lodging.
I'd wish to give hope, but it's kind of too late now.
Anyways, lots of pimple popping out. Maybe is due to sleeping late, or stress?? And I guess, when I'm sad I'd tend to eat more. Well, I eat abit more than usual nowadays. I guess I would grow horizontally as days goes by. It's okay. This way, I mean if I'm really fat, if people still likes me, means they really like me. Ahaha. Anything you think ah, but I'm not in the "perresan" way. I really hope there is someone for me, but a big NO too. I don't wish to see powder. =(
Oh ya, went to a job agency today, want to find some job to do, to keep me occupied. Also, I'm in need of money, as there's a hole on my pocket. Cannot shop anymore. =( But I kind of like this dress I saw today. So cute, and retro or vintage. Just simple love it. But, it shows my fat arms, and I can't afford it now. And, there is only one piece. Sadded. I really wanted to buy it. But, haiz. Nevermind, there is always a better one. (in order to console myself as what gina said)
Went to pool and hospital, nearby shopping malls and back home. Today was not bad, at least I'm out. But, when I'm home, I'm back to useless me. Well, don't wish to further elaborate. But, do you really think, there is a good guy in this world, who will love me, and we will get together? I can only see a bleak future in me. But, I'm fated to have it. God created human to this world to suffer and gain experience. When we complete what we require to do, we will go back to where we belong eh?
Haiyaa, no wonder I find it hard to plug in my mouse after my sister return me my mouse. Sadded. The USB is bent. Wondering how she use it eh. Everytime when something is to lend to her will have bad conditions. =( I told her about this, was really sad and angry. But all she say was, use her ah. Haiya, don't she know that things have their value on it especially for instance is it's sentimental value. It has it's background too. In which some things cannot be replace. Well, maybe is my fate. Or maybe god is conveying some message to me. Haaa.
Holiday started 3 days back. Didn't really looking forward to it. =( Holiday means plenty of free time, means have to stay at home, means nothing to do, means rot at home. =(
I have plenty of stuff to blog, and was intended to blog few days back, but was having oral, and then my poor memory didn't remind me to do so. Anyways, to think of my oral, I am very disappointed in myself. =( I screwed up the entire stuff. Was relax(trying to), or all thanks to my memory, I have forgotten about the conversation part, and did not have the time to anticipate the questions. Hence, I screwed up the entire oral, again! My mind was like totally blank when the examiners asked me questions. That's not all, I even blabber stuff that were unreasonable, totally NON-SENSE! God, hope everything will be alright! =(
Yup yup, holiday means end of this semester, means it marks the end of studying in E35K. =( Mixed feeling actually. I thought this class would be nice and all initially, and I even make sacrifices for the bonding and all when everything seems so fine. But, I don't know what happen, we got drifted and drifted. Sometimes I did pondered on this issue. It may be because of the complicatedness we had, or, maybe I'm just fated to have this kind of friendship in every semester or may be is due to the much hassle and obstacles that we have, as afterall, there is this inconveniece thingy that we do not have in common and this is the key to drift us away. Anyways, what can I do now, but to move on. There's no point too, as everything seems too late.
I'm quite sad to end this semester, as this means that I would have to face new people new class new environment again. I would have to face the facades and all, who knows. But hopefully, they are kind and sweet people. I hope they would end my fate of having "short-term" friendship. =) Anyways, hope they would not be irritated by my slowness and dumbness.
Well, I need to look for a job now. So broke now. =( And is holiday now, so, in order to kill time, I'll have to do so. Friends around me will also be busy later on. They have their job found; some having attachment. Awwwwww, so good. I'm jobless, clueless, useless. =(
Had sumptutous meal today. Slept for 4 hours today, was really tirring. As I have to wake up early in the morning, to my used-to-be grandparents house to pray. The offerings were sumptutous, ranging from roasted suckling pig to steam chicken to vegetable. And usually the offering will end up in our stomach after all the pray and all. Thus, get to eat them all. hehe. I can really eat a lot, as I'm the "last man standing". Besides that, I get to meet my cousins. They are all grown-up. Look and sound mature. Didn't really get use to it. They have their girlfriend and boyfriend eh. Younger than me, but all having their partner found. So sweet. Ha, okay, shall not continue on this topic. =(
I guess, I'm leading back my normal life now. I think I thought I shall I must I could I should I would I am I will I can do it. At least I'm trying, and I'm awake now. Though they were still regurgitating in my mind.
Who have this song eh? Who know how to dl from baidu? Who know how to dl movie. I'm so lost.without you. I wanted to ask, but, I wanted to stop disturbing you. ='(
I'm so down. Who willing to cheer me up? I want somebody who would not break my broken heart again. Who will it be?? Nobody. =(
1:55 AM
Littlest thing by Lliy Alen
Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing Especially when I have to watch other people kissin' And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood I dont why I trusted you but I knew that I could We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
[Chorus] Dreams, Dreams Of when we had just started things Dreams of you and me Lyrics It seems, It seems That I can't shake those memories I wonder if you have the same dreams too.
The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame but its so true I know its not right, but it seems unfair That the things are reminding me of you Sometimes I wish we could just pretend Even if only for one weekend So come on, Tell me Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed Watching DVD's When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers As if we ever needed anything to entertain us the first time that you introduced me to your friends and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand when I was feeling down, you made that face you do no one in the world that could replace you
[Chorus] Dreams, Dreams Of when we had just started things Dreams of me and you It seems, It seems That I can't shake those memories I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame but its so true I know its not right, but it seems unfair That the things remind me of you Sometimes I wish we could just pretend Even if only for one weekend So come on, Tell me Is this the end?
This song is meaningful; explain how I'm feeling now. ='( I cried. His answer. As expected. No reply. =(
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
5:20 AM
Today is SANDY'S SWEET 19th BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!
4:54 AM
Pics taken on fri. =) Mostly edited by SITI AMINAH!!
So dumb of me today. Actually intended to find pics of me and my best fren. Because wanted to give her a big big poster. But couldn't find nice and recent ones. Browse through lots of pics of me and him instead. Memories flooded in my mind eventually again.
I edited the pic. Set it as my dp. Don't what's my intention too. I know he wouldn't even look at my dp or nick. I know he has no time to even bother of my presence.
Why people only treasure after they lost. Maybe after lost then you will realise the presence of importance of somebody.
I have no idea what I would do now.
Contradiction and only contradiction.
My mind now is like the clock.
Keep changing and changing; turning and turning.
I'm like going round circles; keep swirling and swirling.
This moment I decide this way and the next moment I might change.
My mindset is disrupted.
I can't even think properly; there will be an interference occurs always.
I wanted to call or meet him face to face. To settle whatever I wanted to settled. Get the answers that I wanted.
(hopefully is something good--> But I don't think so.)--CONTRADICTION
zzzzzzzzzzzz
This moment I decide to do so, the next moment, I lost my courage.
I thought, I could be irritating as I'm the third party now. ='(
He say is unfair to the girl. (So his decision is the girl?)
(If not why he choose the girl over me?)
If is unfair; better to let got now than later right.
If is unfair; what about me? ='(
Okay, what if I meet him. I scare I will forget what I wanted to say; say something wrong.
What if even after I met him, his answer is still a don't know?
Or what him the answer is not what I want?
I know, is better to try than sorry.
But sometimes I really hope I could live in my dreams.
Horoscope for the day:
The Bottom Line If you feel held back today, the restrictions that you feel are in your imagination. In Detail If you feel held back right now, the restrictions that you feel are more in your imagination than in reality. There is a part of you that is looking for an excuse to not move forward on your latest project, and welcoming the chance to put things on pause for today. But what do you really gain? The longer you put things off, the longer it will take to get to your personal finish line. You're not really held back right now -- just keep going; you'll do fine!
I don't want to get hurt. But I want to know the truth. And truth hurts. ='( Can't I get the answer I want??
Monday, August 20, 2007
10:52 PM
Life without you wasn't okay for me now. But, I think for you, life without me would be much more better for you eh. Anyway, I don't really mean much to you, and the two years we had doesn't mean a tinge to you too. You only seek fairness for her, all you think is only her. Saddening. Well, I realised. Life isn't the same as before now. Even if we get to each other, which is impossible now, there will still be another her in between. And I'm the third party now. =(
Went sentosa on friday. Bring back lots of memories again. Why, why, why. Why the two years make such a huge impact on me, in my life and is, just mine. I hope somebody could like damage my brain or something. Why I could forget any other thing except for the memories, and places we went. Why is it only hurts the one that care. Only the one who care and still love feel hurts. ='(
Anyways, dreamt of you. We meet after school as usual to go home together. It was as if we were back together again. But well, is just a dream, sweet dream. But is far too sweet from reality.
Feel like a fool today. Still hoping there is even a chance to see him. Sat in the library, watched people passing by, wishing that I would get to see him. (is what I can do now) How dumbbbbbbb. He may not come to school today, or had he left, or just that we are not fated. My wish was not grant. But, what if I see him? As if time would turn back. Ha, this is where it always contradict. Wake up la Eliane. It's all over! Don't you get it, it's all different now. He changed. Not yours anymore; is hers now.
Anyways, saw this true side of somebody. Hope I had misunderstand or you didn't really meant it. Nevermind. School ending soon. Changing class too.
Only the one who really love you would get hurt. And in a relationship, it always take both hands to clap. In which, I stand no more chance now. She is much more important than me now. What he thinks about now, is only the fairness towards her and only her. Though he say he still loves me, he chose her. The decision is very clear now though he mention to talk about this after his NS; just an excuse to make me feel better. This time is really is goodbye. ='(
Went to see fireworks display on friday and saturday. Some memories were brought up again, as me went to see fireworks display during last year too. (I did blogged again it last year too) Somebody brought me there. Why? Why is it that he is everywhereeee. ARGH!! maybe he went this year too, but with another girl. =/
Anyways, I went with my friends this year instead. My view was from the back. Don't really like it, as we need to squeeze here and there when fireworks get started. As you know, I'm short, so can't really see much when people were standing, as they get pretty excited when the fireworks get started.
I really hope that, next year, there is this rule stating that everyone should really sit down and watch, so as everyone will get to view it. It's quite saddening to get block by those tall people, as who would want to born short eh. Moreover, saw this wheel chair couple being block by those people standing up. Can't they be more considerate!!
Well, besides that, I get to see the stars in the sky while waiting for the fireworks to start. Saw these twin stars. Was named twin stars by me is because they are so closely together, just side by side. You can't really spot if there were two unless you see really squint your eyes and observe properly. I am glad to have this opportunity to sit down and observe the stars, an even better, spotted the twin stars. =) At that moment, I really have the urge to buy telescope and study more about astrology. But I'm quit lazy to do so now, and have no money to buy telescope too. =/ Moreover, my oral is reaching yet I do nothing about it. Sad. Though I don't wish to get the same result again, I just can't get myself to start revising. Too lazy. Argh!!
Hope to see miracle, but well, will it happen to lazy people???
6:28 PM
Oh man, I really think this is scary. Friendster horoscope is so freaky. See what's for me today, as in, friendster horoscope really knows what am I thinking. My god. I started to believe in horoscope again.
Remember I used to believe in them during my secondary school day. I read every Teenage magazine horoscope, and even used to buy the book for aquarius every year, as it is in yearly basis. But, find out that it is less accurate and is like a waste of money. Moreover, we can't possibly let horoscope manipulate our life; must lead our own life with our own control. But, this is really freaky, as if it can hear my prayers...
The Bottom Line When contemplating a relationship, tune in to your deep feelings about who they are.
In Detail When you think about where one of your relationships is going today, you need to look away from logic and tune in to your deep feelings about who this person is and what they bring to your life. Ask yourself whether you are keeping them in your life because they bring out the best in you -- or because you're used to having them around. Once you face that question and answer it honestly, you won't have to worry about having doubts about friendships ever again.
I've been weeping but yet you are chatting and seeing ur new girl and game. If only it was that easy, I could have moved on. Can't you see, im trying to be happy and have been working really hard to not thinks about you. So now i am not fine because i still do think of you. It hurts a lot. And you're hurting me. You always hurt me but i can't get enough because I still love you. I love you anyway. I dont want to love you but it just falls too deep. Why cant we just go back to everything like it was before.
I can't help but to blame myself for leaving you first. But why am I still dwelling at the same spot and yet you are so far away now. You asked me to move on and I had tried very hard to do so. But somehow, I find my body ain't moving at all; sweet memories (all the trips, from overseas to movies, expo, hospital, changi airport...) of us keep flashing in my mind and somehow the bad ones seens invisible now.
I left you because I thought I can, and had moved on. But, who knows. Maybe it could be easier if I had love you lesser. I am just like one useless drug addict now. However, there is no more drug for me. So I shall suffer till I quit or it will persist on till my deathbed.
There is time I would want to talk to you, msn you, call you and sms you. I wanted to tell you how much I love you, I misses you, and hope you're doing fine, please be careful. But I know I'm not supposed to do so, as I can't always find you like before now, so i deleted the message that I had typed out. (somehow wish that you will know, but...) I had to keep it all to myself now, in order to not irritate you further. What I said to you previously was commented being too straight forward. But I thought we were close enough to open up to everything, as we know each other for more than 2 years. We share almost everything of our stuff in these 2 years. Hence, I thought it would be okay till I got a "dunno" from you, I realised I was actually wrong.
Things wouldn't the same like before now. Hate to see and say these but, you could have treat the girl how you treat me like before, or even better. She could have better understand you and knows you better, as she too play the same game as you, common interest which we are lack of. I should've known my limit. Sorry. I don't wish to and will not irritate you further.
I am rather contradict now. Wanted to wish for your happiness, but wish you come back. Wanted to be happy, but keep tearing because of the flashing memories. Wanted to not know how you treat her, but was curious about her; what and how she attracts you, the level that you two are at now. Wanted to die, but lack of the courage. Wanted to forget but keep thinking. Wanted to move on, but I trust no guys now. What am I doing!!!!!!! ARGH!!! =( =( =(
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Thursday, August 16, 2007
2:41 AM
Hmm, think my friendster gone case already. Got some virus I think. Whenever I go my own profile or whatever, it shows the "savior of soul" page. Then found some solution on the bulletin of my sis's. I deleted my media stuff, and I even tried to revert everything. However, the problem persist; worst now- because it's a blank page now. ahaha. sadded. =(
My horoscope for the day as followed:
The Bottom Line You can't let your personal issues conflict with your business or educational goals.
In Detail You might not be able to get along with everyone as well as you usually like to right now, but there won't be any real fights. The social harmony will still be there, but there will be one or two people who rub you the wrong way. Unfortunately, you won't have time to address these issues as thoroughly as you would like, because you cannot let your personal issues conflict with your business or educational goals. You have to ignore these people and just keep on moving forward.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
1:12 AM
Life as per normal in school. Much more better now, I feel a bit more warmth and sense of belonging in the class. However, its going to be the time to bid goodbye soon.
I feel so sluttish recently. As though I am the third party. I know I'm at fault, and know its all too late to say anything. But if I had the power to turn back time, I would treasure them even more and would not neglect you. Sorry. But your feelings for me is not deep enough too. I'm quite disappoint with that. Though I'm at fault in neglecting you, it's your fault too to fall for a girl that fast; regardless that we had been through this far. =(
Are you serious in giving this whole thing up? All the memories and times we share just given up like this? I realised my wrong here and trying to salvage them now as I don't want any more regrets later on.
On the other hand, I know that I have no rights to stop you from her; acting like a third party now. How could everything took place easily, just like this. Disappointing. It could be god's will too, for the girl to fall into place at this moment. No more stand as I am the one who let you down first; who did not cherish you.
I wish that I could be generous to wish for your happiness. But I'm struggling in fighting to my contradictions. I would love to wish you but would like to salvage everything. Am I really too late?
Maybe it's just that, human will only cherish when they lose; good memories floating in mind when you lost, and bad times when you're still with each other.
Decision is needed to make to hold no regrets. And by being afraid to feel regret in making the wrong decision will only result in creating more regrets in your life. Regrets is a must pass obstacles; is where you learnt and gain experience in life. To make regrets now so that you would tend to cherish and treasure more in future, and would not make the same mistakes again.
I have no idea how to move on now as I'm still in the mid of struggling and fighting my contradictions. =( It just hurts thought I know it's pointless and have to move on. ='(
Why, do you always do this to me? Why, couldn't you just see through me? How come, you act like this Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall? I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me, are you and me still together? Tell me, do you think we could last forever? Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying Let's play, a different game than what we're playing Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart? I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me, are you and me still together? Tell me, you think we could last forever? Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me, are you and me still together? Tell me, do you think we could last forever? Tell me, why
It’s impossible to understand what’s going through a guy’s heart Dobeche ar suga obso namjaurui maum You told me that you wanted me and now that I’ve given you everything, you tell me you’re leaving Wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande You told me that it was the first time you felt this way, and said that I was special Ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun I believed you… and it was my happiness Gu marur midosso nengen hengbogiosso [chorus] You should have told me that your feelings had faded Marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go I had no idea, and I continued to depend on you Nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you Nonur yohamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya Because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika They say that when you give a guy all he wants he quickly gets bored Modungor shibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge And now I know that’s the truth… Namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha And although I tell myself, I’ll never be tricked by love again Dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman I fall in love, and my heart is broken again… Todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya [chorus] You should have told me that your feelings had faded Marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go I had no idea, and I continued to depend on you Nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you Nonur yohamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya Because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika They say that when you give a guy all he wants he quickly gets bored Modungor shibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge And now I know that’s the truth Namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha And although I tell myself, I’ll never be tricked by love again Dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman I fall in love, and my heart is broken again… Todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya [chorus] You should have told me that your feelings had faded Marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go I had no idea, and I continued to depend on you Nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you Nonur yohamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya Please don’t break the hearts of girls, who’ll do anything for love Sarangur whihesoramyon modun da har su inun I didn’t know that living this life while being loved would be so hard Yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo [Chorus] Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you Nonur yohamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya Because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika [Today we broke up…] [onur urin heojyosso] [You told me to meet someone better than you, and be happy…] [budi hengbogharago noboda johun sarammannagir barandago] [You’re just like all the other guys…] [nodo darun namjarang togathe] [ What happened to when you told me that you loved me?] [nar saranghanda go marhanten onjegol] [Honesty, I don’t want you to be happy] [sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho] [What am I going to do if you really forget about me?] [naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge] [I’m in so much pain, more pain than I can bare] [nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde] [Because I’m still in love with you…] [ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde] Please don’t break the hearts of girls, who’ll do anything for love Sarangur whihesoramyon modun da har su inun I didn’t know that living this life while being loved would be so hard Yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo [chorus] Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you Nonur yohamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya Because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you Nonur yohamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya [There’s someone I’m in love with…] Because I’m a girl, to whom love is everything… Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika [Although I can’t be with her now…] [I’m still in love with her]
***** Yeah, because I'm a girl. The lyrics is true. It’s impossible to understand what’s going through a guy’s heart. They are complicated. They should have told us that when their feelings had faded. As we will had no idea, and to continued to depend on them. Although we say we hate you now, we’ll be missing you. Although I tell myself, I’ll never be tricked by love again I fall in love, and my heart is broken again…
What am I going to do if you really forget about me?
My horoscope for the day: The Bottom Line An emotional connection is growing distant, but they'll be back in your life soon. In Detail One of your close emotional connections might feel as though it's growing a little bit distant today, but you cannot take this personally. If someone who usually has all the time in the world for you isn't responding to your emails or phone calls, it's not because they've pushed you to the back burner of their life. It's probably because they have some things going on in their life that they need to take care of right now. Give them some space for a few days.
Hope it is true. I'll be waiting. =)
Thursday, August 09, 2007
11:25 PM
Today was a boring national day for me. =( Stay at home whole day long, doing nothing. Life is like that when you have no other half, and friends are like family-oriented kind. Its good to have family bonding too. I would love to have it, but my family were no longer that close than before. =(
Oh ya, today is my elder sis birthday too. Happy birthday to her! Hope she would be more mature, and think for herself and us, especially my parents, treat them better. Hope she will think. =)
Ha, now I realised, actually there's a lot of sweet couples around me. They leading a better life now. These show that after all the bitterness, there will be a fruitful one. Some also realised, the importance of the guy the had, and went back. At least they learnt from their previous relationship, and now, will surely improvise on it and start off with a better one.
So good, so sweet. Glad that they still cherish each other. Well, at least both parties still willing to try and work out again. They will surely treasure each other more this time. =)
And for mine, I guess I have to wait for my mr right, who have patience for me. =)
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
4:39 PM
Went changi with friends yesterday.
Remind me of the days... the day we loiter around listening to songs from ur hp we did come here... the shop.. bought me lolipop from here
still rmb, we were listening to "childhood story"??
we named it in english this way.
we sang together as we went home,
by lorry,
everybody sing together..
but the fact now is, we are a part.
12:43 PM
When somebody always comes to you initiate the chats and all means he like you? or showing some interest at least?
But when the chat logs lessen gradually till no show of initiation from him know him toking to another girl means, he had leave you?
I feel so sluttish recently find things to say, sms, and all, to him what he used to be had turned my routine
But, I decided not to be sluttish, no more. These sluttishness could only lead to people's irritatingness. Just let people who wanna leave, leave. You end it, not me. No point stopping a changed person rite?
My luck I guess.
12:15 PM
My luck was so down laterly I'm not as lucky as you mention before Lots of unlucky event took place in my life
I've been so down I've got hurt by everything; almost anything I'm a heart breakee now, all at one blow Keep on banging on people and stuff Hope I would get bang by vehicles (mayb a lorry full of shit???) Basically, I'm carrying brusies inside out.
I also have unlucky fingers In which it will spread my "unluckiness" around like for the recent incident: "Aminah's laptop".
When I used her laptop trying to get connected to the internet; no matter how many umpteen times I've tried I wasn't able to get connected However, when she try to use, It was successful. Also, when she wanted to show me stuff, or everything I peek at her com, her net will get disconnected. Additionally, when my "unlucky" finger touches her screen, HER COM GOT HIBERNATE!
My virgin trip to baybeats this friday. It was eye-opening. First time see people "smoshing"(not sure abt the spelling); more to legal fighting. "P It was really scary to see such act happening, however, my friend said this is normal and people usually do that. Luckily I am not standing near the smosh pit. Apart from this, I am also charmed by the bands. They were really awesome, though I have lots of comments on them. =D
I don't really understand why they like to hurt themselves in from of the crowd. They keep beating their chest and all. However, only the vocalist does that, as the rest were too busy on their instrument. The drummers were way too cool man. I seriously think that their leg muscle must be huge. =)
Went there again on sat, which is the next day. Actually planned to study, however, my friends "planed" me. They have their stuff to do, so went down to baybeats again to kill time. Been so bored nowadays. Somehow, when you have plenty of free time, you would tend to think more. So, ya, I hate it.
Enjoyed quite a number of bands, except for one. I just dislike her vocal. She does seems she never had enough training and all. Her tune was way too off. Though I like the way she speak, but her singing still, not that good.
Ha, soon it will all be over eh. Even human will die one day, memory will soon fade away, resources will be depleted...
Saturday, August 04, 2007
1:04 PM
I think, you still like him. It aches you when he say he like someone else. It aches you when he rejected your every offer. It aches you when you saw him. But, what's the point now? Girl, you choose this route. Who will expect that everything changes so quickly; Including his heart, even with so 2 years of memories. And now, his heart had changed. To belong to other girl. What's the point? Just let go everything. Let him find his happiness. And YOU, move on! Please, no point tearing.
To logaRANGINI: ahaha. See this print screen. Me no lying!! is grey in color and ppl's one is green.
Took these pics on our way home. keke "P
Today is SANDY'S SWEET 19th BIRTHDAY!!
I miss him.
the day we loiter around
listening to songs from ur hp
we did come here...
the shop..
bought me lolipop from here
(dun turn out good for this, due to the flash, hard to adjust the color =/)
