Have I.?

I miss him.

So dumb of me today. Actually intended to find pics of me and my best fren. Because wanted to give her a big big poster. But couldn't find nice and recent ones. Browse through lots of pics of me and him instead. Memories flooded in my mind eventually again.

I edited the pic. Set it as my dp. Don't what's my intention too. I know he wouldn't even look at my dp or nick. I know he has no time to even bother of my presence.

Why people only treasure after they lost. Maybe after lost then you will realise the presence of importance of somebody.

I have no idea what I would do now.

Contradiction and only contradiction.

My mind now is like the clock.

Keep changing and changing; turning and turning.

I'm like going round circles; keep swirling and swirling.

This moment I decide this way and the next moment I might change.

My mindset is disrupted.

I can't even think properly; there will be an interference occurs always.

I wanted to call or meet him face to face. To settle whatever I wanted to settled. Get the answers that I wanted.

(hopefully is something good--> But I don't think so.)--CONTRADICTION

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This moment I decide to do so, the next moment, I lost my courage.

I thought, I could be irritating as I'm the third party now. ='(

He say is unfair to the girl. (So his decision is the girl?)

(If not why he choose the girl over me?)

If is unfair; better to let got now than later right.

If is unfair; what about me? ='(

Okay, what if I meet him. I scare I will forget what I wanted to say; say something wrong.

What if even after I met him, his answer is still a don't know?

Or what him the answer is not what I want?

I know, is better to try than sorry.

But sometimes I really hope I could live in my dreams.

Horoscope for the day:

The Bottom Line
If you feel held back today, the restrictions that you feel are in your imagination.
In Detail
If you feel held back right now, the restrictions that you feel are more in your imagination than in reality. There is a part of you that is looking for an excuse to not move forward on your latest project, and welcoming the chance to put things on pause for today. But what do you really gain? The longer you put things off, the longer it will take to get to your personal finish line. You're not really held back right now -- just keep going; you'll do fine!

Will I really do fine?? =(

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