Have I.?

Life as per normal in school. Much more better now, I feel a bit more warmth and sense of belonging in the class. However, its going to be the time to bid goodbye soon.

I feel so sluttish recently. As though I am the third party. I know I'm at fault, and know its all too late to say anything. But if I had the power to turn back time, I would treasure them even more and would not neglect you. Sorry. But your feelings for me is not deep enough too. I'm quite disappoint with that. Though I'm at fault in neglecting you, it's your fault too to fall for a girl that fast; regardless that we had been through this far. =(

Are you serious in giving this whole thing up? All the memories and times we share just given up like this? I realised my wrong here and trying to salvage them now as I don't want any more regrets later on.

On the other hand, I know that I have no rights to stop you from her; acting like a third party now. How could everything took place easily, just like this. Disappointing. It could be god's will too, for the girl to fall into place at this moment. No more stand as I am the one who let you down first; who did not cherish you.

I wish that I could be generous to wish for your happiness. But I'm struggling in fighting to my contradictions. I would love to wish you but would like to salvage everything. Am I really too late?

Maybe it's just that, human will only cherish when they lose; good memories floating in mind when you lost, and bad times when you're still with each other.

Decision is needed to make to hold no regrets. And by being afraid to feel regret in making the wrong decision will only result in creating more regrets in your life. Regrets is a must pass obstacles; is where you learnt and gain experience in life. To make regrets now so that you would tend to cherish and treasure more in future, and would not make the same mistakes again.

I have no idea how to move on now as I'm still in the mid of struggling and fighting my contradictions. =( It just hurts thought I know it's pointless and have to move on. ='(

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