Have I.?

Saturday, January 26, 2008

7:51 PM

While waiting for Dev.

My only view.

We were really window shopping.

LOL, shopping when shops were closed.

Dev too tall ahh..

Saw wai wai. keke.

Bye Calvin. See you real soon!!

Calvin went army yesterday. Hope he can handle well, everybody will be missing you. =) When you are scare or whatsoever, just look upon the sky, and think of us okay. =D We are all under the same sky, looking at the same sight. An well, the glazing stars will really lighten up your little dark spots of life, and make you smile like how they did to me. =)

Wake up early, because we meeting at Calvin's house to sort of sent him off. It's supposingly to be a surprise but well, ahahaha, somebody spoilt our plann. LOL. hmmm, yeappp, it was a heart felt session. And I can sense Calvin fear though, and I understand it. But well, he still can crack jokes and all, staying strong infront of us, holding his tears.

Hmmm, after which, we went to eat our breakfast, teck keong and teng went to school. Gina and shuyi, supposingly going school, but, they were too lazy to do so. LOL. Shuyi afraid her com kana virus and all, cos she having the lesson in which need to put virus into her com, and she has to remove it. She doubt she can do it, so decide to skip. LOL.

But well, despite of them not going school, and persuading me to not go too, I still insisit on going. LOL. Because, classmate yusra birthday aitee, and I bought her something too. And yeappp, class celebrating for her, and got her a present. So SWEEEETTT kan??? keke.

OOOOhhhh yaaaa, O level results are out eh, and KNOW WHAT??? Eliane FINALLY PASS HER ENGLISH!!!! Wooooo~~ keke. So happy, and thanks to Sandy, for helping me to check my result. =D

Hmmm, went to DXO with dev and frens, and loga. ahaha. Supposingly, Sin nee, Javius are to go too, as a "class" clubbing thingy. Butt, something cropped up for them ahh. And left me loga, dev, and dev's fren. LOL. Ohhh yaaa, stupid dev, let us wait for an hour or more sia. LOL. Hmmm, and with the free time, we roam around city hall, marina square ahh. Actually, it's just one place in marina square ahh. Its good or bad luck?? Cos I get to see what I wanna see. But sadd ahhh. haizzz. It was just a nice dream afterall kan??? And then, dev all reach at 12 plus ahh. Me and loga initially thought that it will turned up boringgg, because we know none of dev's fren. And I feel so out of place though. LOL. Logo know why. keke. But well, it was a fun night afterall. NICEEEEE. We got to dance till we sweatt sia. LOL. Or issit the place has no aircon??? keke.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

1:46 AM

Been so long since I last update. Am I immature to not update my blog? If you say so, tell me how do you define immature? LOL. Everybody has their own rights on their on life kan? So, you can do what you want to do, and take responsible for anything you do. And yeap, though it can be immature to say about doing anything you wanted to, but hey, it's also mature as you will take charge of what you do kan?

Whatever it is, today is totally not a good day to start with. Work till early morning, like 1 plus today. And yeapp, it was really tirring and felt asleep without doing my RJ. Hmmm, however I did wake up in the morning like 7 plus to rush it. But due to some internet problems, as my house just got upgrade to mIo, so the setting and all, I have no idea what the connection and password is.

After completing my work, me went back to dreamland again. And I dreamt that my ex actually has a new girlfren. LOL. Don't know why I had such dream. Well, I got woken up but quite a numbers of call, which my mum's and sis's call. Oh mann, after a long day school, work, I cant even have a nice sleep. And yeapp, why must I even have to suffer, and take initiative to answer the call?

Things wasn't any better, in fact, it got worst. And yeap, my sis's bf went to my house again, as usual. But this time round, we got into an agrument. Well, two versue one, what do you think? And, if you know me well, you should also understand that I'm not a person who will express herself well, and having a short-term memory loss as well. So ya, don't expect me to be able to defend myself, and letting out what I wanna say all these long. Yup, I did have lot's of disagreement about his stay and all. And I did kept them all along with myself. But well, sometimes there really has limit you know, and I did let out some. And, don't people same problems to their family, such as their parents? And yeap, I did complain to my mother, after them repeating the same thing again. Like, people really tire and all, why cant they even choose the way of how they want it to let out?

Immature??? Maybe I am a little, but well, at least I admit I am. Hmm, but how do you define mature? Speaking, or scolding somebody without thinking of how that person feel? Hurting them without knowing, even when the other party is crying, you still insist that you did not hurt them? Criticise and curse people on how they live their life? Touch people's laptop without the owner's permission? Never take people's point into much consideration, and insisted on your own? Demanding for aircon, fan, electricity when you need it? Conversation on phone, or with your mate when people are asleep? Stay at people's house without realising about the position you are in? Saying that you are fair, when you are stating a bias statement? PDA in front of people without considering how people feel?

Hmmm, yeap, maybe that's your definition for mature. And well, I still insist that different people have different perception, and this explain that different family has different sets of rules and their way of playing the role in the family and their life style. Well, I think that even the role of elder sister do varies from family to family.

Yeapp, I really am not good at defending myself on the spot, and speaking out my mind straight away. And I will, always, unable to recall what all incident, or disagreement, examples I had encountered too. Actually I did think of asking him to write down, or type out, and email me about all the things, unhappy things that he wanted to say, so that I could be able to consider and voice out myself to say what I really wanted to say all these while. Also, to even able to remember what he was saying. As I can tell you, now, I can only remember bits and parts of what he was saying, and raising voice at me.

But well, I do believe that, because the fact that we are human, so, everybody do have emotional and limits. And yeapp, people do get angry, bad mood or something, and they will show it, and maybe even vent their anger on you though is not your fault. It's just a way some people use to vent their anger, and we should, at least be considerate, as I do believe most of the population does that. And yeap, when you get angry, shouting is possible. But, I still do respect you when you ask me to shut up. But do you do the same thing when I ask you to? And you still say that you have the right not to shut up. And yeap, I do agree with you. But well, think again, mature eh?

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

2:16 AM

minah's inspired pose.

buddha look alike.

(no offence)

bLa Blaaa blaaaa. I realise I always has the tendency to write long long post eh. ANd then people will not even bother to read them. Haa, well. Nevermind. ahaha. Hmmm. I shall try to be short for this post. =D

Today, first day of school, quite bored, and too lazy to even do my slides. Saw mira, like finally. And we all, me, loga, minah, mira and nurul, finally have the chance to walk to station together. Only left mimi. haiyaaa. Well well, wasnt in a really good mood though. Feel quite out of space actually. But nevermind. ANd and, plus I was thinking of somebody ahhh. Sadddddddddd. Not fated I guess, this is wat loga say, and it sounded true. ahaha.

And went to work, home, rj, sleep then, I guess. Haiyyaa, so tire. Only get to sleep like 3 hrs today. Then still have to go work and all. But well, tml same old shit again. So i better head off to bed now. =D

Oh ya oh yaa, I found my true love today. A true love which will make me smile like a psycho. ahaha. Yeappp, the skyyy. SO NICE TODAY!! After all the moody moody. It really noes how to make me smileeeeeeee. SO MANY STARSS TONIGHT!!!!!! =D Thanks ya. =DDDD

ANDDD last but not least. IF you are free, go to watch *

THIS and stop this act. So horrible, cruel. I can even see the animal crying, and it was like looking at itself, and die of sadness due to seeing their own plight. =(

Sunday, January 06, 2008

12:56 AM

PP result out sia. Lucky I pass.

(Despite of the bad comment.)

me can touch and can see cleary okay!!

so don't say I cant reach when driving. ahaha.

(teck keong's car.)

Get to take pic with daphne.

haven seen her for so longgg.

Lucky we never leave early. =D

I request a picture with her..And she rejected me sia.ahahha.

After all the throwing cakes and whip cream.

we are were drinking STARBUCKS.

My Pink braces. keke.

Arghhh. I can sense the presence of the remote controller is aroundddddd. I hate this feelinggg. =( Making me feel vulnerable only. Hmmm, I think, I'm doing too much, and I am confining myself to do okay. So don't feel irritated if I'm on and off okay, minahh!! ahahaha. Don't say you don't understand me. I'm like controlling, that's why contradict ahhh. ahahaha. I don't want, and hate to be vulnerable again. =(

Ohh yaa. This whole week, I nv get to work ah. I skipped some days, so that I can have this whole week not working, because school starting ahh. So must playyy before school start. =) Though, maybe there's is still days at homee. Oh yeaapp. Me went for my appt already, my braces got tighten. Annndd, my dear girlfrens accompany me ahh. How sweet. Thank you girls. =) Hmmm, but well, it got lose when we are reach city hall, and I have to go to the hospital again the next day. As we planned to shop after my dental appointment. Andd andd andd, guess whatt, who tagged alongg. Is our most missed fren nurul!! ahaha. So happy that she came eh. It has been really long, since our last meeting. =( Misses herrr. Must do this often okayyy. =) I really hope it like our whole big group go out together ahh. Like hard only, to get everyone together. =(

Andd yeapp, we went city hall hang out, cos minah say she like city hall. Hmmm, and we went to the food court that, favourite hangout too. Got nice popiah and ayam penyet. keke. Nice nice. And then we bought starbucks and plan bring to esplande, drink and hang out, chit chat, took pictures. =) (Oh yeaap, I drank coffee sia, it was bitter, though the starbucks guy say it's not bitter at all, and if it's bitter he will change it for me. ahaha. But I paiseh wanna change la. ahaha. But well, it was sweet after that ahh. Cos I slowly get immune to it. ahaha. Oh ya, the starbucks guy speak malay to me sia. wthh.) Chat alot sia. And noe more updates about each otherr. Though some I already noe. ahaha. But well, I enjoy doing this ahh. Then we went over to the marina bay again. ANd chit chat ahh. Hmm, some bad, some good. Don't know ahhh. But we chatted till 11 plus, and took train homee.

And fridayy, wake up early, as minah wana get her com configure, and I say, I accompany her, so she can accompany me also to my dental appt. Hmm, I always nid companion to dental. =( Never went there alone before, as he had always accompany me to my appt beforee. And after, I feel lost, keep forcing people to go with me though, ahaha. Sorry people. But really thankful with all the efforts, though I never really showw.

Yeappp, then we went to school as plan, but later ahh, as usual. ahaha. But then, cos there's something cropped up, and minah's com nid longer time to configure, and my appt cannot be later than 5, so yeapp. I went off without her. She alone at it helpdesk. Sorry eh. Haiyaa. But well, I was lucky ah, firdaus was also in sch to get his laptop fix, and he is going to get his pay at changi ah, soo I persuaded him to take the same line as me. ahaha. Andd then, gina accompany me throughout my appointment. Yeappp, I admit I was lucky that day. =) Oh yeapp, sorry gina, I let her waited for 2 hrs??? If I never remember wrongly, this is what she nagged into my eyes throughout the whole appt. ahahah. Hmmm, but well, I appreciate laa. =D My dearest good great fren okay!! aahaha. Hmm, after which we proceed to meet shuyi, she was late though, and we went to chalet together. =D

Chalet was fun ahh, though is not as great as the other time, but there's different kind of fun in it. =D We get to hang out together, barbeque, and play, chatted. Nicee eh. And is also a birthday celebration for teck keong, and farewell for calvin. hmmm. He going army ahh. But well, fun fun fun with them. Only laughters and laughters. =D Oh yeappp, teck keong is so cool sia, he got license and now, his own car sia. So cool ritee. How I wishh..., ehhh, eliane shall stop wishing okayyy. His family and mine is like different. People rich, you are not. Whateverrr. ahaha. Haiyaaa. But well, get take a ride of his car. =D Annnd, yeapp, navya and gang was planning for a clubbing trip, but well, this has been carry out since dunno-ages-ago-already. ahaha. Hmmm, but, if I go with them, I will be the noobest noob in the gang who cannot dance. Because they dance really well, at least way better than me, I cant even get my body move. =( Hmmm, oh yeapp, navya get to teach me how to grind people. ahaha. She was a bit high ah. But well, me and saihah was expecting more, when we know that uma and navya were drinking. We thought we could see more of the "high" side though. =D

Hmmm, school starting soon. How fast ehhh. =( Don't know till when then we can meet again. Oh, and the clubbing trip, dunno till when den could really go with them siaa. So looking forwardd to that. ahaha. Oh, and yeappp, I passed my PP. =D