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Saturday, August 30, 2008

4:04 AM

Today was suppose to be a good fine day. Got to wake up early today, and went out with gina, shuyi, and sweeteng. It has been so long since we last met each other. Hence, good day, initially.

Went to suntec, comex. Sweeteng wanted to buy a webcam, cos, ts went to china, for a month, study exchange. Thus....(go figure. lol) And me, trying out digi cams, and looking for ipod touch. But well, turns out not all digi cam are up to my expectation??? They were grainy?? But why is it so?? Some salesperson say becos the iso is too high, and some say it was low. Okay. So who to believe now??? (I have no idea.)

So I guess, I just stick to sony?? The touch screen function one?? Don't know.

okay, it could be quite a fuss too, when you got lousy reception at that place, whereas it tends to have alot more people than you could see in street. So ya, easily get seperated from your group of friends and, hard to contact each other too. This is quite baddddd. (So stay close.)

Well, the nightmare begin again and again. Haizzzz. So here again, the stupid captain or supervisor or manager, whateverrrr. He is really such a pain in my eyes. Oh my god. He likes to complain alot, and well, did he set as a good example??? Okay, first thing first. Since he is new, we all understand that he might be new to this environment and all. But, well, stop pretending or commanding people around like you are good at it or something.

You know what, you, like to command people, okay, specifically me, around. What the hell, issit that me is easily bully? (Okay, maybe I'm small, but I have my limits too thou.) What the hell, even them, the senior says, he only command me, but not them. Like what the ****. Why me? I am also about a year working experience in divine. And I thought I could stay long, like few years okay. Why the **** you wanna do things this way? I am nice to you doesn't mean I can be bullied okay. I know what I need to do. And stop ordering me around when I was about to do it (don't order because you like to order), and stop commanding on doing things when you are actually free.

You only like to complain, say people never work, or no difference or something. But do you actually look upon yourself before saying anything? If you really think you did alot, then why the hell are you watching people do but not helping? Okay, maybe it's your job to supervise, but how about, you assigning the task to everyone but not doing what you assign to yourself? Like for today, you say you in charge of bar, so why do you leave when there's bunch of people at the bar (and other customers) waiting for your service? Whateverrrrrr.

Time really change. New system, new management eh? Now that because they are new, they feel insecure and just wanna suppress everyone eh? especially the old staff who works under the previous management before? Oh please, if you wanna people to respect you, first you must respect people, then you would gain respect and recognition from them. Not this way!

One more time, please stop pretending like you-know-all when you are not okay. You are just slowing everyone down, and dragging us into the same hole that you had fallen into. What for?

Anyone??? Any job offer???

A.S.S.O.F.F.P.L.E.A.S.E.

Friday, August 29, 2008

2:44 AM

omg!!!! I really don't like my manager. Especially when he don't know anything, then act like he know. What the hell sia. Then wanna fabricate stuff to confuse people only, in order to cover his mistake. My god.

We all know that, learning can take place throughout our life. Regardless of learning from a 3 year old kid, or a 65 year old, old man. The matter of learning is to learn from others, and admit your mistakes ritee. But him, wanna act smart only. I just wanna be nice, let him know the fact, but he himself wanna talk rubbish to me. Good people don't always have good returns eh?

There was one time, when he make a cocktail, gibson, where he actually put ice into it. But well, I ask if this cocktail really include ice, to really double confirm with him. Also, I told him that I don't really think there's ice in it, throughout my divine life. But well, guess what he say? "A little ice will make the drink taste nicer". What the hell, then another girl told her that she remember the customer, and she always order the drink, while the more experience bartender did not include ice, then he wanna change only.

And nowwwww, today a customer order lychee martini. Actually I plan to do it myself, but well, since he is free and I still have to pour out the beers, I ask a favour from him. And guess what he try to act smart again. "You wan frozen or shaken for your lychee martini?", manager. And I said: "Lychee martini only have one, whereas frozen or shaken applies to margarita instead". Guess whatttt, he said : " martini also can be frozen. Nevermind, I just do the normal one for you." Like what the hell. After that, I tried to clarify with the more experience bartender in front of him, and the experience bartender actually agree with what I say.

I mean, if you don't know, there really is'nt a need to pretend what. You just have to say "YOU DON'T KNOW!". Why the fuss to pretend and fabricate a story to cover another, and teach people the wrong stuff. There is'nt any fault to show sign that you don't know, cos there is'nt anyone who will know everything. And it don't cost you anything to learn from somebody, who are younger, or, who you think is stupid. I mean, what is commedable is when you admit that you had actually learn from a 3 year old kid. Whatever ahhhhhhh.

I hate people who pretend.

~~P.R.E.T.E.N.D.E.R.~~

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

3:51 AM

Haiya, so many problem today at work. First of all, the stupid new captain or supervisor is working for every night ahhh. And he is a danger person, where he will note down what you never do, what you do but not good enough, then complain. My goodness!

Everything changes. Hmm, got into a "fight" with the new full-time girl. I seriously don't how I am suppose to say. But well, what she went through, I had went through even badly, but she still misunderstand me despite of my position. Whatever ah, I don't know what I should do. Angry, sad, normal??? What's the point of having negative emotion where nothing changes despite of the suffer.

And now, so empty. Wannna share everything with my bf. So first thing I do was to call him, and wanting to tell him everything, but he was playing game, and what he say was, go bathe first tell me laterrrrrr. Kkkk. Whatever. I feel so lonely despite of having this bf. Got boyfriend like, no boyfriend. We never meet for days, but, don't think he even caree.

E.M.O.T.I.O.N.L.E.S.S.

Monday, August 25, 2008

2:24 AM

Finally, today get to eat my SATAY with minah at rubenas. keke. And we order lots of food, but just two of us eating. And end up, not finishing them. We ordered the same old thing, tom yam, and satay. But we try new stuff today, chapatti and mutton chop. And well, the mutton chop was okay only, but chapatti was nice (my first time trying, not bad. keke).

Woke up at 4 plus today. Oh my god. Didn't know it's actually that late when I wake up. But whatever, thought going out with boyfriend, cos yesterday never, and he say will go out with me today. But, as usual, it's never true. Haiya... Sad.

Well, minah actually call, and ask for a meet up, as she forgets her keys, and family went singapore flyer. And thank god, lol. We went causeway point, met jeremy, his colgate showcase thingy. Then, walk around, went singtel, due to the newly launch iphone. The queue was still long. Haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. When will I get to upgrade my phone ever again? But well, the iphone plan was expensive sia. The lowest per month was 59, and the highest it can get per month for a plan was 200 plus. Oh mannnn. Don't understand why the high price.

Went to rubenas, ate. (as mention above) Then minah's family joined, and I went over to her house after that. keke. The initial plan was just to stay awhile to play board games. But, in the mid of the game, the clock struck 11.30, but I still wanna continue, so decided to stay over at her house. keke.

Plans for tml were, wake up morning; go home; wash up; get change, then meet up with jeremy for his gift to someone. Then went to work. That's how my days will be, I guess. That is, when I am able to wake up as plan ahhhh. LOL.

N.I.G.H.T.O.U.T.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

3:23 AM

ARGHHHHH!!
I am so craving for SATAY now!!!!
My goodness, I behave like one pregnant woman. But yea, it's just a SATAY what. Cos I have yet to eat my dinner. And I so wanna get out of my house. =( It's like been working and working for the past few days. So hard to even have my day off, but, what happen now?? I did not get to enjoy it as much (like really stretch my day to the very extend). =(

-nobody will know how I feel. (Not even you. To you, a day, is just a day.)

Well, went to Japanese school, near changi, with Sandy, all and cousin. They have this open house, carnival, to celebrate for their summer festival. Where the japanese will get to wear their yukata, to play games; using the net to catch fishes, hook yoyo, tikam, bowling and etc..., and there's also stall selling japanese food, yum yum. keke. Oh ya, and they even sell Asahi for as soft drinks. LOL. I actually bought it and drink, where they did not really check your IC and all though it's alcohol, beeru. Don't know.

Overall it's fun, we all get quite alot of prizes, worth the fun, and value for money. Nice food, I like, but some were overpriced too. But well, get to see those primary school students wearing their yukata, so kawaii-neh. keke. Seriously cute, especially small boys wearing their "shorts" yukata with prints (like dragonfly..), and girls wearing colourful with prints (like goldfish..) yukata running around, enjoying, speaking japanese. (Makes me imagine putting my kids on with yukata too. keke.)

Not to forget, they also have performances, which are japanese-related, which actually allow us to learn more about their culture. But well, thou there's some not-that-nice-performance by local school, overall, it's quite cute and fun to see their dance, drumming and all.

Now, I feel like flying over to really experience their this day, with yukata on, playing and eating with friends. So ya, Sandy, let's go there some day eh. keke.

And, I so wanna a camera. It's been so long since a take a picture of myself. So missed cam-whoring. LOL. I want camera!!

N.I.H.O.N.

Friday, August 22, 2008

4:53 AM

So saddddddddddddddddd.

Okay, first thing first, today is SANDY's birthday. So a big,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SANDY!!!
Hmm, sorry for the lateness of my sms wishes. I planned to sms you at 12 am sharp, but today was too busy working. So many things happened ahhh. So sorry.
Well, may you be the happiest girl in this world. =) I know you already are. keke.
Hope you would like the present I am going to give you. LOL.

So back to why I'm sad. Cos firstly, is about work ah. So many things not smooth today. And, I am the most stupidest in Divine ahhh. LOL. I actually got hug and kiss by customer. Hmm, okay, he only kiss my hand. But yea, I'm so stun ahhhhhh. LOL. And when he hug me, I was like, how to react, who gonna help me. LOL.

Another thing was, I never get to fly smooth. Keep going abit off to the location I want, don't know what am I thinking. LOL. In case you don't know, my flying also refer as, getting wine(but we really fly, with our wings on, LOL).

Okay, and now right. Actually I wanted to give Sandy a birthday testi, those animated ones. So I go on and search on it (cos I had lost all the links due to reformating my com, god!). So ya, I found a website where I could actually design it myself, which is so cool. But well, despite completing with all my efforts and all. Guess what? I have completed, and decided to post it, and now, the codes is way too long for me to put into frenster comment. Holy siaaaa. LOL. "No words" can be expressed about how I am feeling now.

But well, I came up with these idea, of not wasting my effort. Which is,

Yeahhhhhhhh, putting it hereee. ahahah.

Sandy- meet up soon okay. Happy birthday once again. Nah, your birthday gift. LOL.

B.U.D.D.Y.

Monday, August 18, 2008

4:01 AM

I hate. I love. I hate again.

Arghhh. I really don't know. Confused. Pissed.
When can we really have sweet moments, no fighting, no angry. No nothing; that is bad. Can?

Everything goes like, happy, angry, okay, happy, then angry again.
What the hell, what the hell. I seriously, can get real tire. Figuring how can I have my happiness.

Are we really meant?

I read through people's blog. And yea, see how happy a couple can get. How they cherish each other. And how sad they can get, when she lost her love. And I really wanna cherish, but, I don't know where gone wrong.

I'm tire, I don't wanna think. Don't wanna meet. But still thinking of meeting.

Okay, tell me how can an angry person react nicely? And, it's even hard to not get angry.
He simply, simply depletes me.

I wanna say it, but I don't want history to repeat itself. But, I'm so damn tireD.

H.A.T.E.

3:44 AM

That's what I saw from calvin's blog. Was wondering about my major too. So yaa, went to try it too. keke. (Cal: dun say I copycat. Thou maybe ya. ahaha)

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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You scored as Mathematics/Statistics

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Mathematics, Statistics, or related majors (e.g., Accounting, Actuarial Science, Astronomy, Computer Engineering, Computer Information Systems (CIS), Computer Science, Economics, Engineering, Finance, Management Information Systems (MIS), Operations Management, Physics, Risk Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.
Mathematics/Statistics

94%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing

81%
Visual&PerformingArts

81%
Religion/Theology

63%
Physics/Engineering/Computer

63%
Psychology/Sociology

56%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

56%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

56%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology

50%
HR/BusinessManagement

50%
Education/Counseling

44%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

31%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy

25%
English/Journalism/Comm

13%

F.U.T.U.R.E.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

3:35 AM

Think what you think okay. Have your own r/s thoughts, and let yours glow, and just let mine fade okay. What I wanna say was, r/s takes two hands to clap. I cant change yours, and you cant persuade me, whatever it is. I'm tired. I don't how, and what I can do.

Maybe, it's just me. I'm the one making a scene out here okay.

G.I.V.E. U.P.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

4:18 AM

Okay, so sinful today.

This is the fourth day I am working with Aung, which will also be the last day for this week. Keke. Okay, the thing, got found out by the management. The full-timers got scolding again. =( Haiyaaaaaaa, alot of things changeee.

Surprisingly, Aung actually told me that he did pray today. Hope everything run smoothly. And well, so far, still okay. Nothing really happen within the business. But, still yet to know about the document part. Hope everything really okay. (But, I still think I'm having bad luck, by wearing and smelling the urine pants. =( -for more info, read underneath.. )

Hmmm, my workplace require flying, so actually, I am suppose to change to the angel outfit at 7. But well, this new part-timer (whose fren of the "manager") came, and get herself change for angel. So, Eliane decided to let her fly, since this is what she always wanted, and then, change to angel when she leave. (Cos supposingly, only those who get to work till 1am will get to be angel. But now, time changed, the management also change, so the timetable also abit screwed up.)

Actually I'm quite unhappy with the arrangement now. Is like, everyone, whose new, will eventually get to work harder at the start, due to be a part of the training, then slowly, become angel. But well, when the new part-timer came, she just get to be angel, after she talk to the manager(her fren). Hmm, nothing is actually fair in this world, I suppose. So, everyone, especially for those who been through alot (who came earlier than her), were unhappy. Obviously is biasness.

Okay, so today, when I get to change to the angel outfit, I purposely find the most underneath one, which I thought the most underneath one should be the piece that wasnt worn by her (I admit that I don't really like her, so I actually don't wanna share and wear the same piece with her), because usually, after I wear, I would've put it at the top most surface of the hanger and leave. But little did I expect, I actually took a piece that is wet. Until, I feel the coldness straight after I wear it. I quickly took it off, and change to another piece. And you know what, there's actually a fresh water patch on the pants, and I thought it was like water or what (maybe somebody drop it on water), so SMART ELIANE go and smell it, and IT"S, URINE smell. Hmm, so I suppose, since she the only one who be angel for the earlier time, and who could have the highest possibility of wearing that pants, and hid it at the most underneath of the hanger (since it's still fresh, and is still watery), she could be, no, must be the one who pee on that pants.

So, I actually created much sin for myself, by telling them that she pee on her pants. Okay, I know I'm bad, but I don't actually know what to do. I thought of telling just the only full time girl, but, I actually knew the full time uncle much longer. So I tell them both. And, since the night only left with four of us, which include our captain, and I must tell him frankly, so maybe he can speak up to the manager about she having frights or something?

I don't know, is it because she scare, but don't dare to tell any of us? Or what. I afraid she really hiding her fear, whereby I don't think is good for her, so I decided to tell them about it. Maybe, is my bad. I'm really regretting now. I shouldn't have say this to anyone. I feel so hypocrite now. Sorry.

Thoughts still running in my head: Is it because she has phobia flying? Or is she frighten? Is she really the one who wants to fly?(Cos I heard from the full time girl say she confess that she is the one who talk to her friend that she wanted to fly. But if she wanted to fly, but cant take it, why didnt she tell her fren about the fact that she is frighten about flying?) Or is her friend that ask her to fly?

I don't know.

Am I still doing the right thing?

S.I.N.F.U.L.

Friday, August 15, 2008

1:12 AM

So busy busy...
Working working working since tuesday. =(
So bad luck since tuesdayyyyy.

Our workplace came a new "manager", Aung. I found out that, whenever he is there, Eliane will definitely make some mistakes. I don't know why, maybe it's our eight characters which actually oppose each other. Seriously, my bad luck start, when he's around.

Ever since I work, till now, I had never even break a glass, or make any mistakes. But well, it all get started in tuesday, when he gets to work at night shift, which is same as mine. =(

Tuesday is the official first day where I and him get to work on the same shift. And it all happened. Tuesday, I get to break a glass (my first glass ever since I start work). Then the following day, I get blamed for writing the wrong amount for the "total" column, as I thought it was meant as total in accounts, but well, it actually meant "closing stock" total. And subsequently, the following next day, I get scolded for the wrong amount I wrote for the champagne. =(

Oh mine goodness~

And for today, I try not to touch, and write anything. Guess what happen???? Customer order 4 draft beer and two cigar, and they went off without paying. OH MAN!!!! Some things really cannot be avoid eh???? Now, we all have to pay for their bill, and you know what the two cigar alone can actually cost us 148 ehhh. WHAT THE HELLLLL!!! =(

When it's suppose to happen, no matter what you do, you just can't avoid it~
What's fated, is fated.

F.A.T.E.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

1:28 PM

Yaaayahhh!!
Finally, attend school. But still, late. LOL.
But I simply regret to attend this module's class.
(I hate the inflexible faci. Arghhh!!)
Whatever it is, I finally get to wake up early, like 6 plus today. And well, it's actually the last day of my school. ahahaha.

Get to celebrate Gina's bdae yesterday (in advance). LOL. So sorry ahh, cos I have to work from tue-fri this week, hence of the advancement. Thanks, and sorry everyone for accomodating my schedule though. keke. Sweets. We shared, and bought this fav girl a bag and a tee. Hmmm. It's been long since I see these girlssss.

Change, change and changed. LOL.
Ah tong a.k.a sweeteng become more beautiful. She started wearing contacts, and bracess. Wooo~ Really beautiful lo. I really like her complexion, so fair, so pinky blush, and and, most importantly, she has no dark circles. Wooo~~~ I wan I wan. Also rite, she got a nice, tall figure. =)

Ah na, she started to wear her eyelid glue, and sticker again. Oh man. Ya, got a double eyelid. But simply too lazy, and make it real weird to look upon. ahaha. But, more feminine ehhh. Longer hair than before (like those secondary school days), double eyelid, go figure. LOL.

Then melo, still, pretty business woman?? LOL. Yeap, after graduation from Swiss, everyone and everything changes. She, now so business woman, everything business. And yea, she even printed her name card, and distribute me one yesterday. LOL.

Last but not least, miss chan shuyi. LOL. Hmmm, she has the least changes among us five though, and the second richest (as compared to the businesswoman), but kept complaining "NO MONEY!!!" Whatever ahhh. ahahaha.

Haiyaaa, get to browse through friendster, a couple of secondary school fren profile. Hmmm, come to think of it, really, a lot of things has change ah. No longer that close. No much more outing. DUNO.

I simply hate changes.

C.H.A.N.G.E.S.

Monday, August 11, 2008

2:29 AM

Woooahhh~
Feel like I have not blog for so longgg.
Been working and working, skip school (cos cant wake up, sad =C ).

And yeapp, NATIONAL DAY was on 9 AUGUST!! Think Singapore turned 43 eh. Hmmm, doesnt sound young anymore. LOL. And well, my elder sis has turned 26 at the same time?? (cos she has the same birthday as Singapore. =) ) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! =) =)

Eh, she has the tix to watch the national parade on the actual day. She thought of giving me the two tix, cos she not feeling well, but, SMART ELIANE thought, bcos she has plan with bf, so she can forgo the chance. (cos bf dun like crowd what!) However, when she was out with bf, and told him all about this, the bf actually say her stupid ahh. =C Hmmm, he say he actually thought of bringing me to the national day parade ahh, and had actually made effort to ask around for tix, but failed to do so. And he said I had just slip a golden chance. LOL.

Hmmm, but, I think it's okay, anyways it's hard to actually go out with bf to shopping. LOL. I'm serious. And the reason he is doing so now, is because he felt guilty going out with friends but not me. (I swear he said that to me. =C ) Sometimes, I wondered, am I too boring or what? Must i blamed the friend for keep on going out with him (which left me little time with him), or thank them for motivating him to actually go out with me uh???

Went shopping, bought lots of stuff eh. He bought a 100 bucks surfer pants, then slipper, and I bought like pumps, slippers (same as his =) ), cardigan, facial cleanser... I actually wanted to buy a pair of running shoes, puma or adidas, and canvas shoes, but they dun have my size. =C (Now I know why I always don't even have a pair when I actually keep yearning for one.)

And well well, I get to taste what I wan, the black spaghetti!!! LOL. The squid black sauce with baby squid. LOL. I really ate till my lips turned black. But, you know what, I DONT CARE!! Cos I'm with my bf. LOL. (If with friends I might be paiseh ah.) Hmmm, yum yummmmm. Okay, actually it's kind of taste-less. But, you cant say it's not good, cos I cant stop eating it, cos you simply wont get tire of eating it. LOL.

B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

2:10 PM

=(
I cant feel my happy day, with you, anymore.
Why people say, when couple meets, that's their happiest time??
But mine, say otherwises??
I'm dunno, I feel so tire.
Struggling.
But, I still wanna try.

Something that I always yearn for.
(What my friends always remind me.)

S.A.D.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

6:01 PM

Yesterday was a real tough day k. I was like all alone in the morning. Went to dental alone, for my appointment. (As my braces broke. =C ) Was nearly late. (But still notttt. LOL) Hmmm, went all alone to queensway shopping centre, and also, all alone to ikea to buy hotdog bun. Woahhh, i'm quite surprise about my all alone trip. LOL.

Actually, someone was suppose to accompany me to my dental trip. But well, friends is still more important than girlfrend ahhh. Sadddd, though there's still sms in the morning saying sorry and all but well, i'm all alone. And you have a choice though, to leave early and all. (Am I really be ing unreasonable?? We agreed much more earlier eh, even than them.=C I don't ahh..)

Was thinking through the whole trip, was quite disappointing, and angry at first. But thought through, why must I be angry? I don't know. However, when he called, I was like so no mood to talk to him. Then, quarrel again and again. Sometimes I really don't if he ever thought of my feeling, or issit I'm the one who is (are?) unreasonable.

*Cried* and cry and cry. LOL. Eyes so tiringggg. (Tv channel also so saddeninggg, switch here and there, but still, crying and crying scene.)

When to prepare and all, after all, still need to continue our plan for his birthday. (It's quite saddening to not have any surprise for him. And yea, surprise isn't what everyone looking forward to.)

Went to eat at Mhotel, but well. The food and ambience was okay only. (similar to steamboat.) While eating, was planning and booking kbox with sandy. (hope for at least a surprise, but well...) Yeap, after eating, cab down to JE for kbox, but after asking and all, about the price, I got scolding.

"Why you all never plan properly. Have you think of them, so expensive, and they have 3 people, which cost them 100 plus... You think everyone can afford issit......." Scolding and blaming cause me bursting out tearsss and all, in front of crowdd. What the hell sia, my eyes really work hard yesterdayyyyyy. After everything, he say, he did not blame me, is just, I'm the only one there, and he was just talking to me. (Okay, talking to me with that tone??)

I've always wondered, issit me being so vulnerable, or issit him? I really don't. I seriously, find it hard when I'm with him. When I burst out crying, some thoughts come across. Remember what dev ask me, "did you feel happy like with us now, when you are with him?". I'm seriously tire at time. I really wanted him to have a good bdae and all, but, what I get for my effort was, pure scolding and being inconsiderate. Never think for others, and never think of him. (He say I should have tell him what I plan so he can make plans with his fren and all and bla bla....)

(And shhhhhh, I cant tell anyone about this ahhh. Keep this to yourself, ONLY.)

T.I.R.E.