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Yesterday was a real tough day k. I was like all alone in the morning. Went to dental alone, for my appointment. (As my braces broke. =C ) Was nearly late. (But still notttt. LOL) Hmmm, went all alone to queensway shopping centre, and also, all alone to ikea to buy hotdog bun. Woahhh, i'm quite surprise about my all alone trip. LOL.
Actually, someone was suppose to accompany me to my dental trip. But well, friends is still more important than girlfrend ahhh. Sadddd, though there's still sms in the morning saying sorry and all but well, i'm all alone. And you have a choice though, to leave early and all. (Am I really be ing unreasonable?? We agreed much more earlier eh, even than them.=C I don't ahh..)
Was thinking through the whole trip, was quite disappointing, and angry at first. But thought through, why must I be angry? I don't know. However, when he called, I was like so no mood to talk to him. Then, quarrel again and again. Sometimes I really don't if he ever thought of my feeling, or issit I'm the one who is (are?) unreasonable.
*Cried* and cry and cry. LOL. Eyes so tiringggg. (Tv channel also so saddeninggg, switch here and there, but still, crying and crying scene.)
When to prepare and all, after all, still need to continue our plan for his birthday. (It's quite saddening to not have any surprise for him. And yea, surprise isn't what everyone looking forward to.)
Went to eat at Mhotel, but well. The food and ambience was okay only. (similar to steamboat.) While eating, was planning and booking kbox with sandy. (hope for at least a surprise, but well...) Yeap, after eating, cab down to JE for kbox, but after asking and all, about the price, I got scolding.
"Why you all never plan properly. Have you think of them, so expensive, and they have 3 people, which cost them 100 plus... You think everyone can afford issit......." Scolding and blaming cause me bursting out tearsss and all, in front of crowdd. What the hell sia, my eyes really work hard yesterdayyyyyy. After everything, he say, he did not blame me, is just, I'm the only one there, and he was just talking to me. (Okay, talking to me with that tone??)
I've always wondered, issit me being so vulnerable, or issit him? I really don't. I seriously, find it hard when I'm with him. When I burst out crying, some thoughts come across. Remember what dev ask me, "did you feel happy like with us now, when you are with him?". I'm seriously tire at time. I really wanted him to have a good bdae and all, but, what I get for my effort was, pure scolding and being inconsiderate. Never think for others, and never think of him. (He say I should have tell him what I plan so he can make plans with his fren and all and bla bla....)
(And shhhhhh, I cant tell anyone about this ahhh. Keep this to yourself, ONLY.)
T.I.R.E.
