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Yesterday, I thought everything will ends off nicely.
Went to gina's and sweeteng's fren house, to have our mahjiong session. Quite enjoying, thou there's losses and winning. Know their fren like only one day, as friday we, shuyi and me, went to their steamboat session. Which suppose, I fake sick for my work.
As actually there's work on friday, where I have decided to not go work, and have a replacement. However, she's not free to replace me, due to her exams and all. So ya, was tempt to not go work after this temptation. Hence, I msged my workplace mate, he came up with ideas to help me. And then, off I go with shuyi to the steamboat. Lol. Shuyi was so fierce, when we were late when we went out. Scary. ahaha.
Yeap, and that's the first day we met gina's and sweeteng's classmate. They were different. Quite friendly, and gentleman, I suppose. And yea, I can feel that they treat gina wholeheartedly as a friend. Not those pretendence and all. Just different.
Glad that everything is going well for gina and sweeteng. haaa. At least better than meee.
I'm quite upset yesterday when I went back home. Okay, this thing is like going so long, and is like a timed bomb, or mine which will explode anytime when you step on it. Which ya, it explode yesterday again, and I guess there's more to go? And, I'm really sick and tire of it. It seriously breaks my heart.
I was dead beat tire when I reach home. I even dragged myself to bathe and all, eyes closing anytime. Well, due to morning waking up horrorly. As I got a lump on my right chin. I thought, what is happening to me, and even have the idea to consult a doctor, but gina said it will be a waste of money if I really did it. So ya, initial suspect was pimple, tumor and watever. Then they say it is more likely a mosquito bite or bed bug.
Hence I have this idea of tidying, and cleaning up my bed before I sleep. And you know, I was also super tire right. Then the bomb or mine exploded.
"Don't sweep it on my bed, I jus cleaned it when you were not at home, where you went at that time, it's your problem when I cleaned it and you were not at home..." Okay, what's going on now. She super irritate me on top of my tireness. I mean, yea, I wasnt at home most of the time and why cant my sister have some respect and give me some peace. I wasnt at home most of the time is because, I'm working, or schooling, and mostly it's partly due to her boyfren presence in our house. I mean, it our house, and how come there's this bf doing around irritating me. It already wrong to have him in our house in the first place already. As you see, my place is not as if as big to hold so many people. It's already struggling holding 5 people in my place, and now, add on another stranger, to me, in our house.
I mean, my house, full of girls, and there's like another guy appearing in my house, don't you think its already inappropriate? Changing and all make it super tedious for me, not her eh. And first thing first, he don't belong here rite? And, we do share the room together, fyi, we three sister sharing a room, not as if we have our own room okay. So, she don't even ask for our opinion before shifting him in. And do I even have a choice, when they eat in the room, which is prohibited by my mum, and they play computer games at weird hours with all the shouting or talking loudly with his deep voice, sometimes vulgarly, with the sound of the speakers on, or maybe headphones (which sometimes they got better by leaving the room for me to have my sleep-but will sacastically drop some comment to his online mates-okay, maybe I'm too sensitive but I did saw it with my own eyes once.. ),but as you all know, headphones can be heard in a quiet room too, and the lights of the screen also become obvious when its dark in a room. But well, they think is okay. (Ya, I know they are trying to accomodate, but I'm also trying hard to not say anything even with these small flaws, but can they see that I'm trying too.) And the smell, the mushy...
And I thought, only people living under someone tends to takes all these sufferings? Not the other way round?
I seriously don't know why I must take all these shit, which they don't initially belong here. Not as if he is my bf or brother or something that I must endure, not like I am suppose to. And because of her bf, she even became rude and all to my parents. And protect him blindly. I don't know what to say okay. And I think no matter what I say will also be heard by deaf ears eh? Because, even what my parents say has heard by deaf ears.
Who can even control her now. She is not like what she used to be, caring, understanding when things links to her bf. She become bias, and siding him, and don't even care about sisters and parents. She is incontrollable.
I give up, nobody is helping, and nothing seems helping.
I want a move, a shift, a rent. Anyone? Cheap and nice room for me?
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