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Friday, October 31, 2008

12:12 AM

Haiyaaaaaaaaaaa, super no moooddddddd!! =(

Craving for more fooodddddd.
Gaining weight. Getting fatter and fatter!
More pimples appearring.
Dark circles getting darkerrr!
Grades are out. Both D+ =( (will I graduate??)
SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

SHIT!!! Now my finger got a cut!! Skin came off. =( *pain*

=( I need Mango Snow Ice!

I.T.S.G.E.T.T.I.N.G.F.A.R.T.H.E.R.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

1:12 AM

The Bottom Line
You love hanging out with your people more than ever, now. It's party time!

In Detail
Despite the negative attitude of one of your more uptight friends, you're loving hanging out with your favorite people more than ever, right now. Even that grouchy pal will seem amusing to you -- you love everyone's foibles just as much as you love their charms. This level of acceptance is exactly what makes you the great, non-judgmental friend you are. People know they can be themselves around you. There could be a big adventure coming for you and your people -- make sure you get on board.

Happened to chance by and wanting to see my horoscope like, after so long. (I used to see everyday.) LOL, quite true for the part that happened thou. =) Let's see whether the big adventure did happen not. LOL.

B.E.L.I.E.V.A.B.L.E.

12:50 AM

Below will be so GREEN!!

Woke up quite late on tuesday, initial plan was to start my fyp report, but am still too lazy to do it, thou the deadline is getting near. =( Haiyaa, watever, I had been eating like one meal per day recently. LOL.

Wake up, online, prepare then go out. Despite of waking up early, I still will slack around online, then go prepare and went out without eating. LOL, I'm such a lazy ass eh?! Hmm, then went to meet bf. Quite angry with him when he say he dun feel like going out, and asked me to go his house instead. Like always?!?! Ehhh, so I said "you wan me to go ur house, hear ur story, watch tv while u play dota, then eat, then go home issit?" LOL, okay, I may sound mean ahh, I know I'm not a good gf k. =( Whateverr ah. So he said "kk, go plaza walk walk den go eat k." Haiyaa, better than nth k? lol.

And yeapp, we went to walk awhile, get the stuff he need, and I need, then go cck eat. Hmmm, yummyyy. LOL. We ordered like lots of food, bbq sotong, lala, stingray, veg, and rice, even the auntie also says "can you two finish it?" LOL. But, eventually we did finish everything. And I was quite shock too, without being super duper bloated and all. LOL. After which we went over to his house, sit down, watch tv. =.= (Haiyaa, at least we went out, for a while. LOL.)

Then shuyi called, as she were hanging out with ah na and ken. So yaaaaa, and and, she agreed to hang out with me awhile, cos she also dun feel like going home so early. keke. So ya, went to meet her, cos bf also going camp soon. And we hang outtttttttttttttt. LOL.

Okay, did something really stupiddddddddddddddddddddddd. =( Should I or should I not? Does it make a difference? Don't think so thou. =(

D.I.L.E.M.M.A.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

1:34 AM

Monday, wake up early in the morning, like 9 plus?? (After umpteens times of calling, scolding, nagging by mother, LOL.) Ehh, so get ready as soon as possible and wake sister up. =) But well, I know we still wont get ready that fast(okay, maybe only me), but I asked dad to go down with mum first, and we sisters will come along later.

And yeap, me and sisters leave house at around 11? LOL, and we head down by cab to temple. Okay, they actually were reprimanding me for suggesting cabbing down and all, but look at the time, keke, and yeap, younger sis agreed. =) Oh yaaaa, toking bout cab, the uncle is abit, not tat likeable. LOL. Cos he actually lie to us that there two "zi du an" in bishan. LOL. WHATEVERR. Now I learnt my lesson k, the one at sing ming road! =.=

Ehhh, reach there, pray, then went to buy drink from the vending machine. LOL. Guess what, soemthing wrong with it lo. LOL. Sis try to push button for drinks but cant work. But when cousin's gf tried, it works. LOL. Think the vending like sm. ahaha. Must use violence then can work. kekeke.

After that, went down to big aunt house to eat. LOL, so cool lo her house. Always like to go there, as it is big. ahaha. But we always got ourselves lost down the area, as it is a maze of houses. LOL. Eh, her house got a small wine fridge, then so many alcohols, got a super duper big bottle of chivas and black label, and super duper small and cute cans of asahi. kekeke.

After everything, went over to loga's house for depavali celebrations. =) Hmm, I was late thou, and I have no idea how to get there from yck, so I cabbed down to lolo's house. LOL. Cabbing again. =.= Then I was considered the last to reached. =( Nurul, justin and mirah reach way before, and when I arrived, they finish eating already. LOL. And, mirah drove there! SO COOL lo!!! I also wanted a driving license!!! But dunno why daddy always dun wanna sponserr. Weird! Still rmb me and my sis were talking bout it when we are on our way out from big aunt house. (cos she stay at semi-terrance? Abit lost. keke.) K, den we get to eat, talk, take pictures, before mira and justin went off, cos mira need to go out with parents, and justin went for fyp. Hmmm, oh wells, our clique still lack of minah riteee?!! LOL, she went fyp and meet nick after, so ya, ditch fren. LOL. k la, now bf more impt k, came out only like how many times, so mus accompany. LOL. Ehhh, nurul initially wanted to go off early to meet her "fren", but well, called off, due to last min bla bla bla, den she quite sad. Emoing all the while, den became quite anti-social after. =( So, i accompanied her and all.

Oh yaaaaaaaa, went to fetch lolo's dog with lolo and dad in between. Guess what, there's like accident happened. The driver is a female, and think she brake, and cos of raining day, the car came out of control. LOL. Lolo's dad is so cute, he went "oh my god", "oh my god" all the way. ahaha. Just cute ah, his action and all throughout the journey. kekeke.

Hmmm, after everything, went out with nurul and yang, to... bugis. LOL. Hmm, i did lots of shopping thou. LOL, spent nearly hundred on my stuff. LOL. And nurul nv get anything thou. LOL, think elia really can spent. ahaha. Okay, that is not a good habit. LOL, i marry any guy, the guy sure die ahh. Bf say he got how much, also wont be enuff for me. LOL. Ehh, then after nurul leave, we went orchard to meet his fren for movieee. LOL, elia was really anti-social at first ah, cos they smoking and all, so i really stand far far away from them. Till one of the fren say "someone anti-social ah". LOL.

Hmmm, we went to watch "tropic thunder", and it was a super lame show. There is like gross scene which elia still find it okay, but wagner all was saying it was super horrifying, lol, and oh ya, it was a m18 show thou, and nobody check my ic. LOL, great achievement. kekeke. Hmm, the storyline was like quite lame and funny for some scenes.

Oh ya, for anybody who knows about my hand, lol, you know how "accurate" my hand is rite. She did some sins to some guy again. LOL, so guilty lo. LOL! So sorry thou. =(

Ehhh, after tat actually plan to have yong tau fu at henderson road, where yang and all keep saying how nice and famous it is, buttt, it was closed for public holiday. So we went missing and lost, den finally, reach the cheese prata shop at somewhere near west coast. Quite niceeee, cos elia simply love cheeeeeseeee. kekeke. But the bill was like ex i think. LOL.

Then, yang's bro send me back, lol, so kind, but elia is so guilty ahh. =( So far from their house, and we went lost. LOL, he keep asking me how to go, but I simply had no idea, cos elia dun drive riteeeeeeee. LOL. Sorry sorry, den think cos of going my way, there's like road check, which wasted our timeeee. LOL. Wagner all quite unhappy thou. LOL. Hmm, okay ahh, the policeman were quite cheeky and all. I actually wanted take more pictures, but the policeman dun allow. =( ahaha, like wat sia, elia first time kena road check cannot take pictures issit?! lol.

P.A.C.K.E.D.D.A.Y. =)

1:09 AM

Sunday, cousin's wedding day. So ya, as usual, we get to prepare only when it's like 3 plus or 4. So ya, quite slow, quite late when we leave. LOL. Mum is as always, nagging at us for being so slowwwwwwww. LOL. ALways.

So ya, went there by cab, as elder sis not going (cos of some tv shows. =.=), so we able to take. Reach there around 6. Mum is still nagging. =( Haiyoooo, dunno what happen to her lately. Serious. She nag cos we are slow, she nag cos she is there, and she nag cos we drink, and she nag cos the drink was slow (her beer is coming slow). LOL. ARGGHHH.

Anyways, cousin and husband-to-be were wearing korean suit? Hmmm, I tok they were changing into something later, but well, no. So I'm not sure whether is she pregnant or just the effect of the costume. LOL, so me and sister were discussing about that. And she confirm that is her tummy, not the effect of the korean suit.

Dinner was... quiet. LOL. I thought usually there will be mc talking, and there is videos and all, but well, all were omitted. Hmmm, after the solemnisation at the poolside, which is quite romantic, as they still organise a birthday celebration for her =) , we jus went straight to the dinning area, and all we do were eat and eat. Oh ya, and takes pictures. Hmmm, I shall say, it's quite different?!

Got home quite early, like 10 sharp?? So bored. =( But still need to wake up early in the morning, if not I can go out already. =(

L.O.V.E.I.S.I.N.T.H.E.A.I.R.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

4:31 PM

Saturday went out with workplace frens, shan and yang. LOL. Supposely there were more, but oh wells, people always ditch ahh. LOL. Hmm, I was super late as usual, and shan was like threatening to go home and all. She is really fierce thou. =( LOL.

Initial plan were to go ktv and sing our lungs out, but well, it's a saturday, so ya, occupied ah. So change of plan, went to fish and co to eat instead. We only order 3 soup of the day, seafood platter for two, and one jumbo drink, and these make us real full you know?! We cant even finish the food. Then after which we went to pool fusion for pool.

Okay, I shall say saturday was a really last minute thingy, plans keep changing. LOL. We plan to go phuture after pool, so ya, proceed to phuture, and we queue for an hour you know. Guess what, tickets to phuture were sold out. =( After which yang spent some time thinking how to smuggle ourselves in and all, but still, after much tries, he came to face the reality. ahaha. Eh, so Elia plan to meet dev and yang go home.

Guess what?! Plan changes again, due to divine customer ask us to drink with him, so we proceed to gallery hotel, where there's a wine hut. LOL. So here's the dubious part thou, somebody tok i'm drunk when Elia haven even start drinking k. Then alarmed Gina, and she called me to ask what exactly happen and all. LOL. Anyways, we had two bottle of wine there, one red and one white, then we proceed to Dragonfly to clubb. LOL. FUN.

Hmm, i always wanting to go club again, cos I wanna dance my ass off. LOL. Don't know ah. But I seriously enjoy the night out. We drank waterfall, then martell green tea, and voka ribena for Elia. =) Hmm, but well, Elia still sober afterall ah.

Oh ya, thanks ben for the treat thou. LOL. First time go club and all no need to pay anything. keke. And thanks yang for the transport ahh. ahaha. And sending me home. LOL. And making me laff. ahaha. Know what?! He actually puke in the cab, but lucky the taxi driver has prepare a plastic bag for him ahh. =)

C.H.A.N.G.E.S.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

2:03 PM

Dont lie and say that it's okay
It's alright if there's nothing more to say

So I'm running away, I'm leaving this place
Yeah... I'm running away, I'm running away

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame
It's too late for you to make me stay. No, I won't stay

So I'm running away, I'm leaving this place,
Yeah... I'm running away, I'm running away

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving, yeah... I'm leaving today

I, I'll never let you find me, I'm leaving you behind with the past and
No I won't look back
And I don't want to hear your reasons, don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay
Try, try to understand me, try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place, leaving and I won't wait, I'm running away

I'm running away, Im leaving this place,
Yeah...Im running away, Im running away

Midnight Hour - Running Away

7:48 AM

Hmmmm, so different. Is it me, or is it just me. Yeap, answer obvious. I don't know. LOL. Skipped school today, as mention on previous entry. Went to city hall with sy as she wanted to get a knitted cardigan. And yea, so good, so got what she want. Hmmm, it is really a very nice piece, I choose for her. LOL. Haiyaaa, sometimes I feel so j....

So what if I know what I want, it's best to not thou. I'm struggling among myself. I think it's time for my save-boat?

Ohhhh yaaaaaaaaaaaaa, while shopping at marina square, I saw this really nice puma jacket. OMG, it was like so awaiting to see a jacket that I like in PUMA you know. I always wanted to get myself some PUMA stuff, and now it's time?? Ehh, I'm not sure you know. LOL. Cos though is nice, the color I like for the jacket is off-white, but, this means it will get dirty easier, or my mum washing skills will ruin it. =x LOL. There's black, but I like off-more even more. So I don't know whether I should get it or not, if yes, black or off-white? BUTTTTTTT, it's like not worth it again, cos the design is quite plain. BUTTTTT, it's PUMA, and is NICE, and the material is nice tooo. I seriously DONT KNOW. (Okay, you know me, ELIA is INDECISIVE. =x)

And yang came to meet us, so as to go to work with me later on. So ya, so weird thou. ahaha. Both people so shy, yang and sy. LOL. I intro them like never intro lidat. (Cos I even test them like after awhile, whether they know each other's name, and guess what??!? Both of them say "dont know". LOL!!!) Okay, so first thing first, we sent sy to mrt station, as she's going to meet st and ah na home. Guess what?!? Cos I left my cam with her previously, I actually forget to take back from her. =( HAIYAAAAAAA, forgetful as always. =(

Then me and yang proceed to bugis station, yang treated me to bubble tea again. LOL. Okay, actually is thick-skinned Elia ask for it herself k. LOL. But he is really mean, ask him buy for other staff too, he dun wan. LOL. ahahah. (I'm not suppose to say this thou. =x) Ehhh, I think work today was okay. Quite fun. =) And it keeps me thinking, "do I really wanna quit?" I really don't know. Now that the thing become lidat, I really need to keep myself occupied, to stop me from thinking. If things would be the same, it will be good. But this will result in me being selfish, and moreover, it doesnt depend on only me to keep everything the same. Is it me being bored now?

After work, went to eat with yang. Cos usually, at least for the past few weeks, my friday is.. lively? Fun? So I don't wanna go home that early, and dev is alittle sad (due to jack's journey to tekong) to accompany me. LOL. Ehhhh, and yaa, I drag yang down to eat supper with me. Hmmm, we had dim sum. Order a lot just for the two of us. LOL. And ya, during that there's time Elia sitting down alone, dunno what to do, as yang went to find atm to withdraw money(LOL, funny incident happen to him thou), as we scare we din have enough cash for it.

Still early after thatt, so he suggested to walk down to mustafa. (3rd time going there this week? LOL) Hmmm, actually plan to walk abit den go home, but I actually forget to call uncle earlier, and when I came to realise, it's ABIT too late, as he is already home. And when I mention ABIT, it's really ABIT this time? Uncle say he like just reach home? LOL. And yeap, I have to hang around till the first train thou. And yang accompanied ah. LOL. Feel so sorry for him sia. Is Elia who dun wanna go home, and he still have to wait till morning, where he is having work later also. LOL. Much appreciated okay. =)

But still, this day is different. Hmmm, I get to reach home around 6.50 am? Nearly fall asleep on my way home in train just now? =x LOL. But I still can stay awake till now? LOL. Elia seriously turning psycho, sensitive, bored ah?

Alriteeeeee, I think I'm hungry rite now, like again. =( Better go sleep. =x

D.I.F.F.E.R.E.N.T.

Friday, October 24, 2008

1:00 PM

Meet you by surprise, didn't realize

Let my love could change forever

Saw you standing thereI didn't know I can't

There is something special in the end.

Dreams are my reality

The only kind of real fantasy

In lotion sorrow come to fill

I try to live in dreams

It seems as if its mend to be.

Dreams are my reality

A differnet kind of reality

I dream of loving in the night and loving seems alright

Although it show me fantasy.

If you do exceeds, honey don't for sits

Show me in your way of loving

Tell me that is true

Show me what to doI feel something special about you.

Dreams are my reality

The only kind of reality

May be my foolish less depress

And may be now with last

And see how the real friends can be.

Dreams are my reality

A wonderous world were I like to be

I dream with holding moon light and holding news in try

Perhaps that's my reality.

Meet you by surprise, didn't realize

Let my love could change forever

Tell me that is true

Feeling that on you

I feel something special about you.

Dreams are my reality

A wonderous world were I like to be

In lotion sorrow come to fill

I try to live in dreams

Although its only fantasy.

Dreams are my reality

I like to dream of you close to me

I dream of loving in the night

And loving new in try

Perhaps that's my reality

Richard Sanderson - Reality

12:30 PM

I skipped school today, again. =( But well, haiya, I dun wanna think abt what the first thing ah na say k. ahaha. EEEEEhhhhhhh, anyways, it's good to not go school. As I get to sleep till like now. LOL. Dev, yong liang all also never go. ANdddd, most importantly, I had this very sweet dreams. =D =D

But of cos I hope it for real, but people always said dreams are always opposite from reality. =( I wish I could live in my dream thou. =( It's better down there. =(

I wan my dream back. I wan it to come true. CAN?

D.R.E.A.M.S.