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Monday, actually plan to go school. Change my alarm tone and everything, went bed early. However, I still wake up late, as usually there will be two alarm in total, my phone and my mum's alarm clock, to wake me up, but somehow, my mum set the alarm to 8, and I always off my phone's alarm. Till I realise, it's going 8am already. So, I am so damn late. Deciding to go or not to go. And I have actually prepared my lab coat, changed, get my hair all done. And by then, it's going 9am. In which is when I decided not to go school, cos they having lab session. If I go, I will sure slow the process of others, in which is commented to me for last week lab session. =( Who willing to take the responsibilities to wake me up?? =PWent to bugis with gina, quite lucky that ah na na never go school too. ahaha. She accompany me to bugis for printing of my pp poster, then we head to shop for our stuff. We intended to buy bags, cardigan, and me wanna buy white shorts. However, the bags were like limited, cos I nv see something that catches my eyes. And and, I actually wanted to buy the cardigan, but, the button's color is abit weird, which I dun like. Ah na bought her cardigan, and I get my shorts and we headed to the mall as it's quite hot outside. Went to eat ice cream. She ate tiramisu, and I am going strawberry cheesecake and sour sour lemon. ahaha, Two scoops of lemon and 1 scoop of strawberry cheesecake for me. Whereby ah na scold me for ordering too much. Hmm, I always get tempted by the price and ice creammss. I am easily lured ah, all the promotions packages are meant for people like me eh. Oh god, kick my bad habit away pleaseeeeee.Went to school alone the next day. Haiyerrrrr, loga skip school for both the days. Thought everything would be weird and boring without loga. Luckily got minah and shuyi, in which they accompany to eat and walk to MRT. keke. Well, class wasn't that bad. Quite fun eh. And I am extremely confident during that day. Don't know why ah. ahaha. Can understand the objectives. Maybe it's because it's easy, or thanks to radika the animation. =)Oh yaaaa, our class was talking about the cambodia trip. And I SO SO SO FEEL LIKE GOING. Not for the CE points of course, because I had completed mine. Is actually because of the kids, and I so wanting to go, and experience volunteering life. keke. Rush down to work, even without make up, because I thinking of wearing it after I reach ah. However, it is the worst decision ever. Due to that day is a event day, I rush to the toliet and it's like full of the event people. =( And I have to squeeze myself into the kitchen and get myself dolled up ah. I mention squeeze, because I really squeeze in, as the entrance were block by cartons ah. =(It's really a bad working day, with an empty stomach. I was like fainting, dizzy and headaches ah. And it's my first day of event day. =( I have no idea what I am suppose to do, directions were unclear. And the two girls who is working with me is also new. They keep saying that they only in charge of the two tables only. =( And and, other girls who is also from divine only in charge of few tables, but why only me for two rows of tables. So unfair. Also, is my first day to hold two wine bottles with a hand each. I even get scolding from the people ah. Sad sad. But some was really nice. Well, the best part for event is that I get to eat the beef steak ah. YUM YUM, from hilton hotel. ahaha. There is also a funny part whereby there a drunk man talking to us when we were washing the glasses. And we were like chicken and duck talking; dun understand each other ah. And when I laughed, he follow. And he laughed, we all laughed at him, and this continues for a while. ahaha. And he was saying something pattaya and singapore. He actually wanted us to bottom up the glass of whiskey in his hand ah. We were like saying no no, in which it's obvious that he don't understand us at all. But it all end up with me saying that we were all underage, and he walked away. Till now I still don't noe whether he understand me or is he just tired of laughing. ahaha. =D Got back home without waiting the event to end ah, cos have to wake up early for pp the next day.And well, my pp presentation. I thought it was okay. But, one of my comment is out ah. Which is not a very good comment. Well, sad sad sad. Hope everything will turn out to be fine.Had dinner with sy and gina, we talked a lot. But well, when it comes to me talking, gina was like shutting down. =( Don't like GINA ah. SADDDDD. Nobody want to listen to me now. Shuyi and Gina all sama sama sia. =.=I WANNA WATCH ENCHANTED. =( Nobody to go with ah. Haiyaaaaaa. All got partners or khaki but where's Eliane's??? =(~Will you be mine
Labels: emoThese few days, PP poster, work, school. =( No life. And yeah, I left no life. Feel as though everyone is leaving me, or I'm drifting? Don't know, out of place as always, though still wearing a smile on my face. The used-to-be sunshine is dead. Ahaha. My world is flooding.
I don't know, so lonely. People have their partners, their life. Yeah, happy. And ya, how you look at it right. But obviously, with my stupid character, I don't tend to see mine. Or do I even have it. I like those daysssss, but I push it away. And regreted, but can't do anything too. I really hate the fact that I can do NOTHING about it. Well, I thought I had walk damn far away, but, I left something real important behind. Which easily place me back to the same spot, and waste my effort of coming this far. Now, me myself have to even doubt myself. Do I even leave that place, before? I think, I did. Just that every other factors move me back to the same place. It's like a monopoly game. Depends on your luck, and when you get the lousy card, you would have to move to some place, or back to the starting point.
I am really contradicting. Seriously, I am. Yeah, seens lonely, maybe because of the surrounding. Nah, just myself eh. Stop finding excuses and push the blame to the others eh. People have their right for happiness. You encourages them to pursue it, don't you. You have it, but you are just plain stupid ah. GOD, please kindly move her out of this world. She doesn't belong here, just plain too alien for earth. Take her away.
Haiyaaaaaaaaaa, Just too emo eh. Am I really evil? And am getting retributions? Ya, I agree what goes round comes around. Now I know how minah feels when I said something bad about the still-someone-i-think-is-bad. Because, I HATE SHUYI!!! And, I get back all. Maybe I should say something good, accept everything. And ta-daaa, I get what I want. But it sounds like a really fatty-boom-boom hope. Don't know. But somehow, I think, you only get back the bad ones, which is retribution, but, you don't get back the good ones. Don't know ahhh. Don't know how this whole system works. Will tell you when I die okay. Then I will ask GOD, or whoever in-charge.
Oh my god. PP evaluation is like in 3 days. And I left with 1 day to prepare, cos of my work. Haiyaaaaaa. =(~ ·: .·¨·. :·.: ¨: ·:· :.: :.. ·:· ·.· :: :·.·: :: , :·: : .·¨·. :·.: :.: :.: :
~While you're resting, my heart is depleting 
Reluctant or Busy
Holding on or Letting go
Depleting or Storing
I hate guessing and yet I'm guessing
I hate waiting and yet I'm waiting
I hate I hate but yet I had no other choice
Take me away with you.
The Bottom Line
Old problems are not back again, no matter what you might think. You can relax.
In Detail
Old problems can be tricky. On the one hand, you should learn how to forget the past and move on. But on the other hand, if you don't learn your lessons from what has happened already, you are doomed to repeat some unpleasant patterns. The decision about how to tackle past mistakes will be made for you today, when a new opportunity comes along. There will be a time crunch, so you won't have a lot of time to mull it over. Jump ahead and don't look back. =(
~If I could, I'm already ahead.
Yesterday, emotional. Happy, sad, angry, you named it. But overall, I loved the gathering. Finally, everyone can go out together for dinner. But, I hope its not just for nurul's bdae celebration.
On my way back home, I nearly sprained my ankle, and got crashed by motorbike.
Actually, I have a lot to write, a lot a lot more. But, somethings is better to be kept, then spoken right. I doubt I can keep it forever, but at least for now. I could control myself not to.~ Take me away
